Rambling...

I noticed that I have not been doing a very good job with my blogging. I have become some what of a slacker lately. To be honest, I don't get online much these days and when I do it is only for a brief second to check my facebook and myspace and changes my statuses. By the time I get the girls to bed and all my household duties caught up, I am normally too tired to do much of anything other than watch a little tv or go to bed. I got the girls a big girl bed a couple of weeks ago but I have not tried to get them to sleep in it yet. We did sleep in it Sunday night but it is just not as comfortable as my bed, plus I don't think I am ready for them to sleep in there by themselves. I have gotten quite use to them sleeping in my bed. I guess it is just part of the daily routine now. Maybe once school is out we might try out the new bed again, but as for now it gives Rachel a good place to sleep when she comes over to spend the night. I was getting tired of waiting to find out about the job I interviewed for last week at the hospital so I called human resources yesterday. They told me that the job was given to a CNA that already worked at the hospital...she told me she would be calling me today with an offer about the patient registration job and to finalize everything. She also asked if I would be able to start next week so I am assuming that I got that position. I am anxious for her to call me today so I can get everything in line for starting this new job. I will be so glad to have a summer job! I was beginning to stress out a bit, especially since I have not lined up a teaching job for the fall and since the child support provider got pink slipped for next year. I am trying to think positively though. I am hoping that old saying is true, "good things come to those who wait." I went and spoke with a principal about a job opening last week. He said he would start interviews around memorial day so hopefully I will get an interview! I am keeping my fingers crossed! I don't anticipate an interview for that position until the first of June if I do in fact get one. I am sure most principals do not want to deal with that stuff until closing day is over, etc. He was extremely nice and I was very glad that I took a day off work to go over and speak with him. I am hoping that gave me a few brownie points. We actually got to sit and talk for almost an hour with no interruptions! Hmmm...well let's see. I have updated you on my work status, job hunting status, whats next?
I have got some more work done at the house recently. My dad finished up my deck yesterday. He boarded in underneath my deck so that my kiddos can't escape the fence...not to mention it looks so great because now you can't see under my deck. He even built a little door so I can store things under it. He also built me a new door that goes under my house since somebody stole my metal one! How rude?!? I got two more trees planted this weekend. I got a weeping cherry tree and a white dogwood tree. I can't wait to see how they will all look in a couple of years...that is if I do not kill them before then. I am not so lucky when it comes to plants, but so far so good. I have really changed the looks of my house since I have moved in. I also got a storage building from the menonites. It is very handy. Now I have a place to store my mower which I have already managed to tear up! Go figure...but I promise it had nothing to do with the fact that I hate mowing the yard! Luckily my step dad just bought a zero turn mower so he is kind of obsessed with mowing now...he mowed my yard twice last week! So if you are in need of someone to mow your yard, let me know...he has a few yards so far but he is always looking for more. I guess that just about sums up my life lately. I will try to be a better blogger. Until next time...

Church

So lately I have been thinking about church quite often. I go every once in awhile, but not every Sunday like I should. I really would like a new church to go too. Now, don't get me wrong...there is nothing wrong with the church I attend, its just that it is always the same repetitive thing and there is not a very large crowd of young people who attend this church. I would love a local church. I do not want to drive 30 minutes for church, especially if I find a church that has a lot of activities and things to be involved in. I would love a church that has a nursery so that I could actually pay attention during the service because my kiddos are absolutely wild during church. So, I guess I also need a church where people wont stare at me and think, "Gosh, you need to do something with those kids!" So, if anyone has any suggestions, please let me know!

I was reading Paige's blog today and she had the most awesome quote on her blog. "Maybe when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us." This quote is so true! And as bad as I hate to admit it I am guilty of looking at the closed door for way too long. Jon and I have been separated for over a year now and I still find myself looking at that closed door. Not because I want him back because I do not but because I can't forgive him. I don't want to dwell on the past but I am clueless as how to move on with the future. ...

Spring Break is Almost HERE!

Well, it is official...spring break is almost here...only 7 more hours! I am excited for spring break but then again I am kind of bummed because I dont get paid for all those days off :( Oh well though, it will be nice to do some relaxing and get some things accomplished at home. The girls are going to Jon's this weekend, so Saturday I am going to Lebanon with Aunt Lynn to buy some shrubs and trees for my yard. I am so excited to finally get some landscaping done this week. It will definitely improve the looks of the outside of my house. I also want to get a few pots to plant some flowers in and a flag to put up outside. I just hope the weather is better next week. It will stink if it rains all week! We also have two birthday parties to attend this coming week which is exciting. I need to go buy some gifts sometime this weekend...probably when I make a trip to the grocery store. Well, I need to get back to work. Until next time...

My Weekly Blog...

I dont know what it is about Wednesday but apparently this is the only day of the week I give this blog any thought these days! So here is what has been going on with me this past week...

Nothing interested happened last week...just the same old stuff...work and spending time with the kiddos. This past weekend was really fun. Friday, Jessica and I met up with Kirby for dinner at Logan's, then we ended up at Kirby's apartment for some cards and just goofing off and acting crazy. Jessica and I didnt end back up in Scottsville till nearly 4 in the morning! It was a lot of fun. Saturday I enjoyed sleeping in and then I did some housework. Saturday night Jessica and I took a quick trip to Glasgow. I had to get some storage cubes for the new shelves I got for Emma and Zoie's toy room. I also picked up a few things at Walmart then we decided to eat cheap and headed to Long John Silver's (which is one of my all time favorites! I miss the one we use to have in town!) where we used one of my fabulous buy one get one free coupons, you just cant beat a deal like that! HAHA. I have been trying to get some use out of the coupon book my grandpa bought for a fundraiser...it has really been coming in handy lately. After our trip to Glasgow we stopped by a friends house, and hung out for awhile, then we went back to my house and gossiped, etc. until the early hours of the morning again. Sunday I was very lazy...then the girlies finally came home! I started another long work week on Monday...and unfortunately Zoie woke up sick yesterday morning. I took her up to Linda's and she tested negative for strep. They said it could be too early to actually test positive since she just woke up with the symptoms so they gave her an antibiotic because she had all the other symptoms. Last night she was also sick with diarhea and she vomitted a few times yesterday also. She had a fever this morning but seemed to be doing a little better. I decided to go on in to work because my grandma said she would be fine keeping her even though she was sick. I am hoping she is eating better today and drinking more fluids. As long as she will drink the pedialite she will be okay and not get dehydrated. I just hope Emma doesnt come down with it but I am sure she will. My sister went home sick with a stomach ache and headache this morning so its definitely going around because she stayed the night with us Sunday and Monday. I will just keep my fingers crossed and hope Emma and I get lucky and do not get it. I guess I have been lucky though because this is only the second time Zoie has been sick enough to get an antibiotic since she was born. Well I need to get back to these silly third graders. Until next time...

BoReD!

Today I am subbing at the primary center in a first grade classroom. I was originally suppose to do an ESS make up day today but yesterday I was pulled to sub for Ms. Gregory and I knew she probably wouldnt be back today so I pretty much volunteered to sub in here again. Her class is really good and I know their schedule so I figured I might as well be in here. Plus, I get to do 2 ESS make up days in April to make up for yesterday and today which is more money for me! I am loving working everyday...I mean, dont get me wrong, I love to stay home with the girls but is great to be making some good money these days. I am making way more than I anticipated on making when I started subbing so hopefully I wont have to work this summer. I just wish I could find a job for next fall so then I wouldnt have to worry about that! There I go...worrying about the job situation again...I am beginning to think it is totally impossible to NOT worry about it. So as for that...nothing new is really going on. My life basically consists of the same thing every week. I go to work, spend time with the girlies and that is about it really. Tonight I am making spagetti and my mom is coming over for supper. It has been awhile since I cooked for the family. We have been going out moms more lately...it is nice to get out of the house. I cant wait till it warms up and the girls can play outside everyday. I know how much they love being outside. I am thinking about getting them a playhouse once school gets out and I am at home with them more. I was wanting to get it for their birthday but since that is so late in the summer I want to get it early so they can play with it all summer long. I also want to get them a sand box but I am worried they might want to eat the sand. One of those plastic picnic tables is also going to be necessary because I have a feeling we will be having lunch outside alot. I hope they like to go swimming because that is also something I plan on doing with them once it gets warm. I have so much I want to do this summer, I just cant wait! It seems like winter lasts forever these days! Im hoping by spring break the weather will be a lot nicer out. It has finally warmed up a little bit today. I think the kids will get to go out for recess which will be nice and hopefully Im right and I dont have duty! I mean, its warmer but not warm enough for me! It has to be at least 70 degrees outside for me to want to go outside and actually stay out. Well I guess its time for me to get to my last reading group for the day. Until next time...

Why?

Why is everybody so worried about me having a boyfriend or dating? It seems like everybody has been on my case lately and I just dont understand. I am not concerned with it so why is everybody else? Just because I dont get out much and I am at home so much does not mean that there is something wrong with me...I like my new house, so I like to spend time at home and guys are nothing but a headache. Im tired of putting myself out there and getting hurt over and over again. When it is time for me to find a guy I will, but I am not in a hurry! I do joke around with my friends and ask them if they know any good single guys but Im not really concerned if I date or not. Things happen when they are meant to happen. Anyways, enough of my ranting and raving. Life is good and that is all that matters right now. I am extremely content with how everything is going...even though I am always worried about the job situation which I need to stop stressing over because that is obviously not getting me anywhere! I just hope that saying is true, "good things happen to those who wait." I have a great family, great friends, and everything else in life is also great, so why worry? It is better to live in the present than the past or worry about the future...there are somethings in life that we cant change. Well I have a lot more to say but Ill have to do that later...maybe tonight if I get time. Until next time...

It's been awhile...

Gosh, I cant believe it has been a whole week since I last updated my blog! I use to update it a couple of times a day on some days now I hardly have the time and when I do have a free minute I would rather be doing something else all together. Nothing exciting has really been going on in my life. Valentine's Day has come and gone! Thank goodness. It is one of my least favorite holidays of the year so I am thankful that it is over. The girls liked their Valentine's gifts so that is really all that matters. I spent my Valentine's Day doing a whole lot of NOTHING. Jessica came over and we got some pizza and watched Saw V. It was a good movie but I think the whole Saw thing is really getting old. It is time for a new scary movie with a whole new plot. I have been working everyday lately which is going to be great when payday rolls back around. I am already booked for everyday in March which is good because I wanted to get in as many days as possible before spring break. I also have recently gotten a fence put up in my backyard! I am super excited about it. Clint Livesay came and put it up yesterday. He just has to come back and do a few more things...Im hoping since it hasnt rained all day today that maybe he will get it finished up today or even tomorrow. It is going to be so nice this summer when the girls play outside and I dont have to chase them all over the place. He is also very affordable so I would suggest him to anyone that is interested in getting a fence. I have got several more things I want to do to the house this spring. I am going to box in the bottom part of my back deck which will really look good once that is done. I am also going to plant some trees and do some landscaping during spring break hopefully. I would love to build a carport but Ill just have to wait and see what happens with the job market before I do that. It will really look nice once I get all of this done. I am so excited to finally be in MY own home! How fabulous!? Well I will write more at a later date...hopefully sooner than later. Until next time...

Just a Random Blog

I haven't written a blog in a few days so while sitting here bored at the high school I thought I would use my time wisely and write a new blog. Unfortunately I have nothing important to write about...go figure! Life has been good lately. This weekend I went on a date...Red Lobster and a movie. It was really good and I also had a good time. I also picked the girls up some shoes for the summer/fall that I found on sale at Dillards. I got them for $10.50 a pair and they are Stride Rite so I thought that was a great deal. Sunday night was an awful night for sleep. I had a hard time getting one of the girls to go to bed...she was so mad for some reason. She even hit me in the eye with a sippy cup! The other one went to sleep with no problem but I have no idea how she slept through such a fit! Luckily the past two nights have been better. Monday night they went to sleep with no problem...I even went to bed when they did because I was so tired. Last night was okay too. Zoie started to get a little fussy and has this problem with throwing herself down onto the bed...no matter what is in her path which just happened to be my lip which she busted. I picked her up and laid her on the pillow and surprisingly she went right to sleep. It is like they have to be touching me in order to go to sleep these days so I normally have one on each side of me. So after the busted lip they both fell asleep and slept good all night! YAH! It is always a little rough for a few days after they have been to Jon's for the weekend. They seem to have a hard time adjusting to being back at home. I would really like to know how they get them to sleep??? I was dreading being at the high school today more than anything. I want to be home with the girls. I think the next opportunity I get to be at home on Wednesday I am going to take it so I can get in a little QT with the girls. Well I am going to do a little reading. Until next time...

Tuesday Talks: First Day of ESS

Well my first day of ESS has not been what I expected because I got pulled from ESS to sub for a first grade teacher who was feeling sick and had to go home :( I did, however, get to have my first group this morning so at least I got a start on it. The first group is 30 minutes long and the rest of them are 20 minutes each. Luckily tomorrow I get to make up today so I got to cancel my sub day at the high school! I am so happy because after yesterday I did not want to go back over there! I just hate it. I am scheduled there next Wednesday...I hope it goes better than the last couple of times I have had to sub there. Im going to stick it out because I need the money but I dont know if I will schedule anymore days there. I guess it depends on how desperate I am for sub days. At least I will get to make up ESS tomorrow and I'll make the money that I soooo need to make! It has started snowing a little out but I am hoping that it doesnt amount to anything because I dont want to miss any school this week. My throat is hurting again today. I think Im going to break down and take the z-pac because I dont think it is going to go away on its own and I dont want to be sick and missing work. Today I have to take the girls to their wic appointment. I dread going up there...especially if the lady who did my wic last time I took the girls up there does it this time....she was so slow and the girls were so ready to go home. It was like she was just trying to waste time for who knows what reason. Oh I almost forgot that I went to file taxes with my lovely ex-Jon lol NOT. Anyways, I SURVIVED! I was expecting we would get in a big argument but surprisingly we didnt argue too much. Ive got to work on my smart comments that I cant seem to stop saying when I talk to him. Im going to start trying to be a little nicer, but it is really hard when you dislike someone so much. Im glad to have all that over with because it was really stressing me out! I get too stressed but I just cant help it....Im a worry wart! Well thats all for now. Until next time...

WARNING- HIGH SCHOOL STINKS

This is a warning that NO ONE should sub at the high school. They are rude, obnoxious, inconsiderate children that will drive you insane! I officially subbed for the worst class ever! So if anyone is planning on substituting in the near future, do not answer the phone if the high school calls! I am really thinking about not subbing here anymore except for the days that I have already been scheduled. Ugh, thank goodness I am now in a good class! I would honestly rather sub at the primary center where I have to do a full days worth of work than set over here and be annoyed all day!

The Beginning to A LONG Week!

Well, the weekend finally came to an end! I am sad that it is over but excited that I will be working so much this week because I could definitely use a good paycheck. I was glad to wake up this morning to no snow or ice! I am really hoping for no snow days believe it or not because last week I lost 2 work days :( Today I am subbing at the high school for Coach Bonds. It is going good so far but it is only second period haha. Tomorrow I start my new ESS position thanks to Samantha (Thank you so much). She has taken over a classroom for the rest of the year so they had to replace her ESS position and thankfully they asked me to do it. It pays way more than subbing plus it gives me three guaranteed days a week then I have ABC room on Friday so now I have 4 guaranteed days! I am super excited. This week I have already got my extra day scheduled so I will be putting in a full 5 days this week. I cant wait to get my next paycheck. Im figuring if we dont have too many more snow/ice days that I will be able to pay up my house payment for the summer months incase I dont get a part-time job or I get a job that doesnt pay too much. That will really take some stress off of me! Im nervous about starting my ESS job tomorrow but I am ready!

The weekend went extremely well. Friday night the twins got their first haircut! (I will post pictures when I get home) Kristen brought Avaree and Baylee over and they played. The girls did so good, I was very proud. Z went first and did not cry or anything. E was very curious as to what was going on but I think watching Z get her hair cut first probably eased her mind. She also did great and didnt make a peep. Kristen was very fast and even shaped up their hair while also getting rid of the dreadful mullet! They may look like little boys but at least they dont look like little Joe Dirts now. LOL. Saturday we just hung out at the house all day until around 5 that afternoon. Then I took the twins out to my moms and I went to BG with Jessica to meet up with Kirby for a late dinner. It was so good and we had a lot of fun. Of course we went to O'Charleys...my favorite! Sunday I woke up with a horrible sore throat, I couldnt even swallow. Mom took the twins to church with her and instead of bringing them back home she just went ahead and took them out to Lana's for the afternoon because I felt so bad and was still laying down. They spent the afternoon with Jon because he didnt get them last Tuesday because of the bad weather. I decided to go ahead and get up because the twins were in desperate need of new shoes so my granny and I went to BG. I went in every shoe store in the mall and finally ended back at Finish Line. I got the girls Nike Shox which are very cute. We were going to get them a pair of the Elmo New Balance also because they were on sale for $20 but they only had one size 5...go figure. Unfortunately the Children's Place was not having the same sale as they were last weekend so we didnt buy any clothes at the mall. We also went to Shoe Carnival but they had nothing. Toys R Us is where we did some serious shopping. They had some outfits buy one get one half off so we got a few of those then we got some other outfits that were like $5.99 for each piece which I didnt think was bad. They got several new summer outfits. I am very pleased with their summer wardrobe so far. We also went to Walmart because my grandma wanted to get two potty chairs like I bought last weekend. While at Walmart I loaded up on some play clothes...you just cant beat the $3.50 table at Walmart for everyday play clothes...the girls get those for every season. After a long day of shopping we ran through KFC drive-thru and picked me up some dinner then headed back home. I was so worried that I would wake up with an awful sore throat but luckily I didnt this morning. I took a few tylenol as soon as I got up and I feel great actually...except for the fact that Im so thirsty! Well I guess that is all for now. I may blog again later. Until next time...

Thankful Thursday

Before I begin with my weekly Thankful Thursday I thought I'd give everyone a quick update since I have not written a blog in a couple of days. I just havent felt up to it really because I honestly dont have anything interesting to write about. Ive spent the last couple of days at home doing a whole lot of nothing because of the ice/snow that we have received in the past 2 days. It was nice staying at home but then when I think about the fact that I lost 2 days of work that really stinks. I expected that we would be out again today since all of the surrounding counties called school off last night but no...which proves that we should have been in school yesterday because nothing has changed at all! Both days they waited until the morning hours to call off school which has got to suck for people that have you find babysitters, etc. The weather man predicted the weather just right both days so they should have called off school the night before but oh well...I guess those guys enjoy getting out in the freezing cold so early in the morning to make the decision. I couldnt sleep at all last night because I kept wondering if we would have school. I bet I woke up once every hour. That stresses me out! After I got up at like 5 something and it still wasnt called off I knew Id be working today but I still didnt get very good sleep. It is nice to be out of the house today, I will have to admit. I just hope this day doesnt drag on forever. Im at the high school subbing for Mrs. Hooten the spanish teacher. I was looking over the rosters and go figure...I have one of Jon's cousins in class this afternoon which should be a thrill. I also have the girl that Corey dated after we broke up! LOL. How funny? Oh my, what a day?! Anyways, Im sad because all I brought for lunch today is chex mix. I wasnt in the mood for a cold sandwich or for the potatoe soup that I made yesterday for lunch. Ill probably be starving by 3:00! Well let me get on with Thankful Thursday...here are a few things I am thankful for this week!

1. A good report at the dr. on Monday for the girls 18 month check up. E weights in at 22 pounds 12 ouches and Z weighed in at 21 pounds 8 ounces. Z is also a 1/4 of an inch taller than E and their head circumference is exactly the same. The dr. gave me a questionaire to fill out on both of them that had something to do with Autism and thankfully they show no signs! She even suggested that I move them to toddler beds since they wont sleep in their cribs. I think Im going to buy a full size mattress so they can sleep together instead of wasting my time with the toddler beds because they are so use to being together.

2. The opportunity to work today after losing 2 work days this week already!

3. The job interview that I went to on Tuesday even though I havent heard anything back from it! Im keeping my fingers crossed though.

4. The fact that I had power during the ice storm and a very warm house to stay in!

5. My health.

Well thats all for now, Im sure I will blog again later since Im subbing...we all know how many blogs I tend to write when Im here at the high school, bored out of my mind.

Until next time...

Sale: Children's Place

For those of you with children I just thought Id let you know that Children's Place has all their winter apparel on sale then 50% more off the sale price. I loaded up the twins for next winter and got stuff dirt cheap! Go check it out!

Thankful Thursday

Once again Thankful Thursday has rolled back around...my how the time flies these days! Here are a few things I am especially thankful for today.

1. My healthy, beautiful, and smart twin girls.

2. The opportunity to work today!

3. My grandma and my dad who babysit for me.

4. My health.

5. And last but not least, my family!

I will try to post a longer blog tonight if I have time but as most of us know, tonight is Ugly Betty, Grey's Anatomy, and Private Practice so I may be a little busy with all of my shows...not to mention the twins which will be running wild and needing bathes! If I dont post again I hope that everybody has a great Friday tomorrow! Im sure we are all excited about the weekend...even though I will be missing my baby girls the entire weekend. Until next time...

I Should Write a BOOK!

Since I had E and Z I have always felt like I could write a book about raising twins. Yes, I know, that sounds crazy but Im serious. I have learned so much since they were born and raising twins is not an easy task. They should seriously come with a manual when there are 2 of them! So I thought Id post a few important pieces of advice when it comes to raising twins...it may be helpful and it may not but oh well...Im bored here at work so Im going to post it whether you want it or not! LOL.

1. A regular routine/schedule is a MUST! You cant live without it so dont try!

2. Naps are completely necessary! You will not be able to make it if you dont put them down for at least one nap a day!

3. Dont buy two of every toy...teach them to share.

4. Good highchairs are another MUST! You will spend a significant amount of time using them and especially cleaning them.

5. Portable DVD players are fantastic especially if your twins (this also applies to those with just one child) do not like to spend a lot of time in the car.

Well those are just a few things that were on the top of my list but I have plenty more that I could write about. I know that Ivana will definitely read my blog, so if you have any twin advice please post or comment because it is greatly appreciated.

Another Day, Another $

Today I am subbing at ACPC. I was not originally scheduled to sub so when I woke up at almost 8 o'clock this morning I figured I had the day off. Well low and behold my house phone starts ringing at 8 this morning and it was Brenda from the primary center. So I told her Id be there in about 45 minutes. I hopped in the shower real quick and got ready...threw some boots on the girls along with their coats and hats and we were out the door. Gosh there is nothing more that I hate than being called in to sub in the mornings. I hate not knowing if I have to work. Luckily I am scheduled tomorrow and Friday and then next week I am scheduled Tuesday-Friday. I was asked to sub Monday but I cant because it is time for the girls 18 month check up. At least I wont have to worry about getting called in for a week or so. Mrs. Bush had originally told me that I was going to sub for Ms. Kolzow tomorrow but unfortunately she made a mistake but she said I could come on in anyways which is great because I definitely need the money. What I would do for a full-time job...ugh. It would be so nice to have benefits and a paycheck during the summer!! Oh well, I guess Ill just have to get over it. Maybe Ill get called for an interview in Barren County before school gets out since they are the only place that has actually posted any jobs that I can apply for. I am still keeping my fingers crossed that a job becomes available in Allen County...a girl can wish cant she?? I am so ready to get home to my girls. This weekend they will be with Jon...or with his mother I guess I should say. I will miss them so much. I always dread those weekends. At least I dont have to take the Praxis this weekend so I have nothing to stress over. I need to go to church this weekend since I didnt this past weekend. Hopefully it will start to warm up a little. Im hoping Lana starts taking the girls to church on the weekends they are with them so that they can go to church every weekend. I want them to grow up going to church because I never went to church on a regular basis, just every now and then. Well, its almost time for recess which I am guessing is going to be inside. I wish it was outside because Im sure that would wear the kids out so that they would be a little calmer this afternoon. Well until next time...LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE!

Wishful Wednesday

Here are just a few things I'd like to wish for on this wonderful Wishful Wednesday...

1. a full-time job ASAP

2. an end to Emma and Zoie's colds

3. warmer weather

4. to stay busy subbing every week if I cant get that full-time job I wished for soon!

5. happiness for my family

Tuesday Talks: Snow Day

While I was snoozing away this morning I heard my phone vibrating because of a text message...well actually 2 new text messages. I was rather surprised since it was so early and to my surprise it was Sam and my sister messaging me to let me know that school was called off for the day! I was extremely surprised considering when I had gotten up around 3 to get a sippy cup it was not snowing or anything at all. It was nice to sleep in today but I lost a whole day of work which really stinks...and I know there will be school tomorrow when nothing has changed at all. It hasnt snowed since Monday morning and they called school off on Tuesday for what seemed to be no reason at all. I heard some of the back roads were still slick but are they magically going to be better by tomorrow considering that the temperature has not been over 30 in days? Of course not but they will have school and they should have had school today. I called Mrs. Bush to see if she needed me tomorrow and she said no. So as of right now I am not scheduled tomorrow. I got everything ready tonight incase they do call me so I guess Ill just play the waiting game in the morning. Im not getting up and getting ready thats for sure, they will just have to wait for me to get there if they call late. So, all day I was pretty lazy. I didnt leave the house until E and Z went to Jon's for their routine visit on Tuesday. I ran up town to get gas then I made a quick dash through the grocery store to pick up some juice, bananas, and cokes of course! It was the fastest trip I have ever made through the grocery store in my life I do believe. I hate grocery shopping in the winter! The loading and unloading the groceries is the worse part...it wouldnt be nearly as bad if I had a garage which I want soooooo BAD! Well I dont really have much else to say about my Tuesday. Until next time...

Monday Madness: MY EX

Ugh. Well today was actually a good day minus one or two phone calls and some obnoxious text messages! First off today is Martin Luther King Day and as weird as it sounds...it is one of the holidays divided up on the custody order for E and Z. So today was Jon's holiday to get the girls from 3:30-7:30. Well when his mother brought the girls home last Thursday she didnt mention it so I figured she would call me today around lunch to ask where she needed to pick them up but she never called. I wasnt about to call them because its not my responsibility to keep up with the days that he is suppose to pick them up...he is a big boy supposedly. So I waited and waited...and never got a call and no one ever showed to pick them up. I gave Jon a call around 4:10 and surprise! He didnt know that he was suppose to have them today! Well I had done waited 40 minutes past the time he was suppose to pick them up so I wasnt going to let him come get them because according to our court order after 30 minutes he forfeits his visitation. Plus I was trying to get them to take a nap which was not successful! We end up getting into an argument and he ends up cussing me out like a dog! I was so mad! So I hang up on him and call his mother at work and let her know that he has cussed me like a dog and that if he does it again I will go back to the police or yet ANOTHER EPO because he sounded completely psycho on the phone! Then I hung up on her because I was so mad! I dont really know what the point in calling her was, but I felt like she needed to know considering he cant do anything without her anyways. A few minutes later I notice like 3 text messages on my phone from him...I didnt even know the guy had texting. Well, he apologized and said a bunch of meaningless bull crap...only because it came from him because of course nothing that he says is ever true. His mom ends up calling me after work to see if she can get the girls for an hour to visit her mother but I had just set them down to dinner so I told her she could come out to my house and visit with them so she did for about an hour. I wasnt surprised that she never said anything about her loser son because she never does. She just continues to take his side in everything even when she knows he is wrong. Oh well, I guess some things never change. Anyways, that really made me mad especially some of the things he said on the phone which I wont get into. There was one thing that he did say that really got under my skin and that was that an employee of the board of education here in Scottsville (I wont mention any names), approached him and said she was sorry about what he was going through and that he was doing a great job with the girls! Ugh, that makes me sick. How can someone feel sorry for a guy that cheats on his fiance of almost 2 years with a married woman who is almost as old as his mother when he has twin babies at home? If you knew who the woman was you wouldnt think her opinion should matter either...she's got her own problems to worry with but I guess if she condons what her own kid has done then I guess what my ex did she would condon also. And by the way, you are not a good parent if you cant keep your kids without the assist of your mother for 4 measly hours and if you cant take 10 minutes out of your day to pick up your kids and take them back home after scheduled visitation! I wish people would stop trying to make themselves out to be something that they are not! When your a loser, your a loser, plain and simple. Deal with it! Ugh. I cant take it. I take good cares of my kids...the best. I do it alone! Yes my mother may come out and visit but 95% of the time its just me and them and that is fine because I can handle it. I know that they are my responsibility and I would not trade them for anything! GROW UP! Anyways...haha...I guess that is enough of my madness for one Monday. I will try to post again tomorrow. I think I need to go watch a little tv and relax before bed! Until next time...

Sunday Update

Surprisingly I have not written a blog in a couple of days. When I sub at ACPC I dont get as much time to get on the computer as I do when Im at other schools. Friday I was the ABC room teacher so I didnt even have access to a computer. I did however read a whole book that I would suggest to anyone especially those of you from Scottsville. It is called A True Story of Murder in Kentucky. It is about the murder of Katie Autry at WKU and includes several different people from Allen County. It is very interesting because it is so close to so many people from this area. You should definitely read it. I loaned it to Sam and she read it in just one night! You cant put it down...it will definitely make you think twice about the whole crime. So Friday I did nothing out of the ordinary. I worked at ACPC then came home. My mom and step dad came out with pizza and pasta from Pizza Hut. Saturday I stayed at home with the girls until about 5ish. Then Jessica and I took them out to my moms so we could go out to eat for her birthday, which was great. We went to Outback and then we went to see the Unborn...which was really good but not nearly as scary as I had imagined. We made a quick stop by Kroger to get some juice and milk for the girls...they drink it like its going out of style these days! They are definitely not drinking as much milk which I guess is normal the older that they get. Today I have been lazy. I didnt go to church this morning unfortunately. I will have to get back into the routine next weekend. I have officially cut off all connection with Corey. He really made me mad so I am done talking to him. I cant keep doing that to myself. I deleted him and all of his friends from my facebook and myspace accounts and am officially done. I am not playing his games...I dont have the patience nor the time to mess with his immature butt. Well I would write more but I need to hop in the shower. I hope everyone has had a great weekend! I am so glad its a 3 day weekend! Yah! Until next time...

Wishful Wednesday

Here are a few things that I would like to wish for on this Wishful Wednesday:

1. Warmth...it is so cold in this preschool classroom! My hands and feet are numb.

2. A scheduled sub day tomorrow...but it doesnt look like that is going to happen!

3. For E & Z's runny noses to not turn into anything more than a runny nose...I dont want any sickness with them.

4. SNOW!

5. And last but not least...a good nights sleep tonight!

Tuesday: WHAT A DAY SO FAR!?

Well, what a day this has been thus far!?! I got to ACPC to sub today and I am now in a preschool classroom. Well anyone who knows me, knows that me in a pre-k class is probably not the best idea. Before Emma and Zoie were born I was not a kid person at all! Emma and Zoie, on the other hand, are way different than a class of 18 3 and 4 year olds. Boy, have I had my hands full today! I am exhausted. This is really the first break I have had all day long. We have to go to specials with them and set with them while they eat...I had to wait for lunch when they took a nap! This is crazy. Pre-k teachers should definitely get paid way more than they do. This particular class is a free-preschool classroom and it breaks my heart to see a few of these kids who are so far behind on their development. I am so thankful for my girls and I am so glad that they are up to par with their development thus far in their life. They are really smart actually. They can put puzzle pieces in a puzzle book that they have and they can also identify many things in another book that is titled 100 First Words. My mom swears that they are developing pre-reading skills already because they can tell when a book is upside down and they turn the pages and act like they are actually reading the book. Anyways, Im ready to get out of here for the day. I have definitely earned my pay today and yesterday here at ACPC. I am scheduled here again tomorrow and Im sure its in a pre-school class because the instructional aides are going to be out tomorrow and they need subs also. I cant imagine having to teach a pre-school class all alone! That would be total chaos. Well, Ive got an appointment afterschool then Im home to relax for the rest of the day! Until next time...

My Weekend

Well, my weekend was rather boring. Friday night Jessica came out to hang out for a little while. Corey and Cameron also showed up, surprisingly. They showed up about 5:30, right before the girls left. I wonder if Lana knew who Corey was and if she told Jon he was at the house...interesting...but Im sure Ill never know. Corey came in his new truck which is really nice. Of course, he had to show it off to me and Jessica. Corey and Cam didnt stay too long, so when they left Jessica and I went to Subway to eat supper then we came back to the house and hung out till around 10 or so.
Saturday morning I got up early and met Amber at the bank. We rode together to take the Praxis which was horrible as usual. I have no idea how I think I did on it. Those tests are just so unpredictable...you just have no idea what to expect. I got done with like 40 minutes to go which really worries me. Normally I work right up until the minute they call time so that makes me extremely nervous. I completed all of the constructed responses and finished up the multiple choice questions. I even went back and checked over my answers...changing a few of the multiple choice answers. Im just glad its over and I hope that I dont have to take it again! Pray for me!
After we took the test we ate at O'Charleys which was great! Yum...I love the new pretzel crunch chicken. Then we ran by the mall and to Barnes and Noble...and news flash...do not buy books at Barnes and Noble. You can order them on the website and they are cheaper. I guess because they dont have to pay for them to be shelved in the store. I was buying a book that was $24 in the store and online it was only $19...THAT IS A BIG SAVINGS! I also typed in Barnes and Noble coupon on google and pulled up a coupon code to use online so I got 10% one item which was great. So if your looking for a book be sure an order online. If you spend $25 or more online you get free expedited shipping which is another plus. I hope they get here soon. Im very excited about the books I ordered. One of them is Murder in Kentucky and it is about the WKU murder by the infamous Stephen Soules and Luke Goodrum. The excerpt which I read online was very good so Im excited about reading the book.
After I got back to town I went by the grocery store and picked up a few items. Then I went home and did a little cleaning. Jessica came out again and we just set around and talked. Chad ended up coming by...I guess he was bored. They left around 1:00 am and I went to bed. Sunday I got up at 8 and got ready and went to church! Once again I am very proud of myself for going. Im 2 for 2 so far into the new year! I will be sure and take the girls this coming Sunday of course if everyone is feeling good. After church, however, I did take a 3 hour nap! LOL. I was so sleepy. Sunday I did absolutely nothing, just watched a little tv and then my mom and I cooked some supper and the girls came home! We played, took bathes, then watched a little tv before bed. It was a good but very uneventful weekend! Until next time...

Monday Madness: Workin' in the wrong place!

Now, dont get me wrong because I am very thankful for the opportunity to work today but I am so mad because I am subbing at ACPC. It's not just that Im subbing here, but it is the fact that both JEBMS AND ACIC called me this morning! Why cant they ever schedule me instead of just calling me in the mornings? Ugh, it makes me so mad! I need to be subbing at those schools since they are the schools that I can work at but no...Im at the ACPC which does me no good and gives me no experience working with the middle grades students. It is very aggravating. I want to sub at those schools so bad but I hardly ever get too. At this point though, I just need to work so I will take what I can get, even if it is here at ACPC. I am glad though that Im working 4 days this week. Im sure I will get to work Thursday also which will put me at 8 days on my next check which would be absolutely fabulous! I need to make all the money I can before summer just incase I dont find a part time job! Hopefully Ill get interviewed somewhere for a full time job and Ill get hired so I dont have to stress all summer, how great would that be? I guess every teacher that just graduated and will be graduating in May will be thinking the same thing! Oh well, maybe Ill get lucky. Well Ive got to get started with supplemental time. Fun Fun! Until next time...

5 Ways in 5 Years

So I was reading Ivana's blog and I got the idea for this particular daily blog from her of course because she always has the best ideas for blogging. I am going to write about 5 ways that I have changed in the past 5 years. Here goes!

1. I hate to sound like a copy-cat but this is the truth...I am now a mom...and not just a mom to one but a mom to TWINS! WOW. I would have never imagined that I would have twins but here I am, the mother of twin girls who are almost 18 months old at the end of this month. They are definitely a handful but they are the most precious little people in my world and I wouldnt trade them for anything!

2. As bad as I hate to remember this time in my life...I have been married and divorced...another thing that I would have never thought I would do. I am sooo glad that the guy I was married to is not from here so that I can almost erase that part of my history all together! HAHA. Oh well, you live and you learn!

3. I graduated from college! Besides from Emma and Zoie being the most important thing in my life, this definitely ranks as number 2 on my great list of accomplishments. Even though it took me 5.5 long years, I finally did it! I now have my bachelors degree and I am ready to get a big-girl job!

4. In the past five years I have definitely became a stronger person all around. I have completed college while raising my twin girls all alone...I know...Jon and I were together until they were about 10 months old but I still considering the time that I was with him as alone time because he was not there to help me with the twins at all. If it wasnt for my family I would have never made it. Not only have I raised my girls as a single mom but I have also had my heart broken and when I say that I mean that it was broken to a point where I thought it would never repair which I am still working on at this moment in my life. I went from just worrying about going to college to working my butt off all summer just to make enough money to get through my last semester of college. I have been through alot in the past five years and it has made me such a stronger person.

5. And lastly, I am now a homeowner! I can now stand on my own two feet which I am so greatful for! It is so great to be able to provide such a nice home for myself and for my girls. I dont mean to sound so conceeded but I am very proud of myself!

Well I guess those are 5 of the many ways that I have changed in the last 5 years. It is crazy to look over that list and think about all the other things that I could have written about...it just goes to show that life is very unpredictable but everything always works out for the best. Until next time...

TGIF!

Well Friday is finally here! I am glad it is Friday but then again I am extremely sad! I am happy because the work week is over but I am sad because the girls go to Jon's this weekend...well I guess I should say they go to Lana's but thats another blog in itself. I also have to take the social studies Praxis tomorrow morning at 10:45. Ugh. I dread it. I especially dread the essay part of it because by the time I am done I feel like my hand may actually fall off from all the writing that I have to do. Amber is going to ride with me so at least I dont have to ride over there alone. I am going to meet her up at the bank in the morning then we are heading out rather early just incase we have a problem with parking like we did last time! Other than the Praxis I have nothing to do all weekend! I was going to go eat at O'Charleys with Kirby but then she texted me and said that Vicki couldnt watch Brooklyn so she would have to go with us so I just told her we would go next weekend or something. I mean, I love Brooklyn to death, but I was really looking forward to just a girls night out...plus I have to get up and drive to BG on Saturday morning so driving there 2 days in a row would suck. I really need to get to bed early tonight since I have to get up at 8ish in the morning. I thought there was a bball game tonight so Gina and I were going to go but of course there isnt! My mom had said there was but then she found out there isnt a game so that blows. I have no idea what Ill do now! Probably nothing since I need to get some sleep for my test tomorrow. I really wish the girls werent going to Jon's this weekend. They have been doing so good about going to bed when I lay down with them around 9 and I know as soon as they go over there I will have to start all over again with the bedtime routine as usual. I just hate that they have to go over there! I think Im just going to chill at home when I get back from the test. I think Amber and I will probably go eat afterwards then head back to Scottsville. If my mom goes to church Sunday morning I think I will join her. I am so proud of myself for getting up and going last Sunday so I definitely need to keep that up. I just wish it didnt start so early...9 am is pretty early for church service these days...most dont start till 10 or 11. So, other than the praxis and church I really have nothing to do this weekend. I need to run by the store and get a few small things, like bread, juice, and milk of course which Ill probably do tomorrow or Sunday after church.
So yesterday I worked up at the housing authority helping them finish up a grant for the library then I pretty much just kept an eye on the office for the afternoon after they all left to go to a meeting. I spent a little time talking to Tammy who works up there and she almost made me cry. She was talking about her new man and about how she has never really loved anybody until she met him even though she was married to the father of her children for nearly 16 years. She talked about how she would always have the anger towards her ex but how none of that matters anymore now that she has met someone. It was so sweet. She said the same thing would happen for me and that I would probably meet that someone when I was least expecting it. I hope that does happen but Im in no hurry for it. I am happy being single. I mean, I did like having a boyfriend but my life is so less stressful when Im single! Well I think I have definitely written enough for now. Ill probably post a couple of blogs today, considering its only 8 in the morning and I am already bored out of my mind! Until next time...

Thankful Thursday

I cant believe that another Thankful Thursday has already rolled back around! It seems like I was just posting this blog last week! WOW, HOW TIME FLIES. Here are a few things I am thankful for today...

1. My beautiful twins
2. The opportunity to work a little extra
3. The fact that Im scheduled four days to work next week already!
4. My family
5. Lunch, which is on its way! haha.

I will try to post another blog later! Im keeping busy at work today, so not as many blogs as a normal work day. Until next time...

Bored!

Today I am working at the high school, subbing for Coach Miller in health and PE. I got here and had planning first period so I was stuck in the library doing nothing. I did, however, look over my Praxis study guide since my praxis is Saturday! I hope I pass it because it is the last one that I have to take thank goodness. I need to call my friend Amber and make sure she is still riding with me Saturday. She started student teaching this week so Im sure she is busy knowing her because she is such a worry wart. Yesterday I got a text from Jay and got to go work up at the housing authority for about 3.5 hours. I am going to work up there all day tomorrow which I am excited about. Id rather work up there for $7 an hour then wait for a call to sub which may never come! No one called me this morning but luckily I was already scheduled to be here at the high school. I guess a lot of teachers arent taking any days off this first week back to school since Christmas break. I am subbing at JEBMS on Friday so Ive had a pretty busy week...only a half a day off on Tuesday so that's pretty good. Next week Im scheduled 3 days already. Hopefully I can get scheduled the other two or at least get called in, hopefully at the middle school. I turned in my application up at the housing authority. Im hoping I can get on part time so that I will have a job lined up for the summer when school gets out. That would be absolutely wonderful. I also got scheduled for the 9 days of testing at the middle school. Thats really nice considering that will be 9 days on my last check...not to mention the other days that Im sure I will get to work because so many teachers take off at the end of the school year. I just hope something opens up at the middle school for next year. Id love to work there! Tonight Louella and her kids are coming over, maybe even Jody. I am going to cook some spagetti, using Rotini noodles instead and some of that Tony's garlic bread which is soooo good. Im excited about the dinner. Spagetti is an easy fix plus Ill have them there to entertain the girls. It should be fun. Im ready for lunch already! Im starving, guess I should have brought some breakfast! Ill have to remember that next time! Well until next time...

Wishful Wednesday: Patience

Since today is wishful Wednesday there is one thing in particular that I would like to wish for and that is PATIENCE. I know that it is only 7:42 in the morning but I feel like my patience is already thin. The girls were rather fussy this morning...whining over things like not being able to climb up in my computer chair and just whining to be whining I think. I want to also work on their patience also. You would think with there being two that they would kind of develop a little patience considering they have to wait for me to get the other one dressed, etc. but NO WAY! haha. Im hoping when they get older that they do gain more patience with me as I deal with them as best I can when it comes to getting them loaded into the car, etc. They are extremely impatient when Im doing that...its like they think Im going to just take one of them! So anyways, I wish for more patience on this wonderful, yet cloudy wishful Wednesday!

Suggestion...

I forgot to mention that I want to recommend the Twilight series of books to anyone who has a passion for reading. I just finished the last book of the series, Breaking Dawn, on Saturday night and quite frankly I am sad! The books were sooo good that I am sad that I dont have anymore to read. It is a vampire romance...or at least that is how I describe it, and yes I know that may sound a little weird but they are awesome! I would suggest that you read them if you have any interest in reading at all. The books are rather lengthy...I think Breaking Dawn was over 740 pages. I started reading them on December 15th or so and I have read all four books now so that has got to prove to you that they are really good. I even bought the books because they are so good. I thought that maybe one day my girls would want to read a good book when they are older. I even saw the movie Twilight on December 28th and it was awesome. I dont think it would have been nearly as good if I had not read the book first though. Im planning on buying it when it comes out on DVD also. Im hoping that the next movie will be out soon! Anyways, just a small suggestion for those of you who like to read. Ive already got Sam and my mom hooked. Well until time...

Things To Get Accomplished Today!

Just a quick note for myself...somethings that I need to get accomplished today. Typing them out seems to make me remember them a little better.

1. Turn in application after school.
2. Do a load or two of laundry.
3. Cook and clean house.
4. Lay out stuff for a work day tomorrow??

Resolutions!!!

I made a couple of New Years Resolutions this year so that I would hopefully at least follow one of them.

My first resolution is to drink 8 glasses of water a day, which I have already broken. I have been drinking some water each day but not 8 glasses. However, I do plan on working on this, maybe drinking a couple and building my way up to 8 glasses of water a day. I mean, that may not sound like a lot but to someone who never drinks water and is totally addicted to cokes...its a hard task!

My next resolution is to go to church on the Sundays that I have the girls. Well, forunately I have kept this resolution so far! I know there has only been one Sunday this year but I went to church! I am so proud of myself. I decided to make the resolution for the Sundays when I have the girls because I felt like that is one I may actually be able to keep. I may go to church when I dont have the girls but I really want them to grow up going to church.

I think those are the only two resolutions I made but I may add a few more as the year progresses...I see nothing wrong with that. Anything to make me a better person all around is great I think! Lets just hope I can get on track with my first resolution and that my second one continues to go well. Until next time...

Monday Madness: My Break is HISTORY!

My break from working is officially OVER! I had really anticipated on having the day off again since its the first day back from Christmas break...I didnt expect many teachers to call out after a 2 week break but apparently I was wrong. As I lay in bed this morning my phone rings at approximately 6:45 am. It was Mr. Pardue from the middle school so here I am, at work on this lovely Monday morning. The reason I posted this on Monday Madness is because I hate when I get called in so late in the morning. Why cant teachers call out earlier? I mean, I hate rushing, luckily last night I had prepared for this so I had my clothes laid out and my coffee ready to go but still...I will definitely be sure and lay out my stuff each night just incase because it really helps. Thank goodness for my grandparents because they came over to get the girls this morning for me. They do that when I get called so late. Without them I dont know what I would do! I would probably be late a lot lol. So, anyways. I am glad I got called in though. That means Ill have at least 6 days so far on my next check, hopefully I can get one or two more days before the 20th so I will have a really good check. Its nice to get a paycheck...I almost forgot what that feels like. Well enough of work talk. Ill write another blog later about whats been going on with me since the last time I posted. Until next time...