Goodbye 2008 Survey

Well, 2008 is coming to an end...so here's a survey about the year I'm leaving behind!
ALL ABOUT 2008!!

Where did you begin 2008? At Jon's house...where I lived @ the time.
What was your status by Valentine's Day? Unhappily engaged...being cheated on.
Were you in school ( anytime this year) ? yes, college
Did you have to go to the hospital? No
Did you have any encounters with the police?Yes...domestic violence.
Where did you go on vacation? No where
What did you purchase that was over $500? my car and my house
Did you know anybody who got married? Yes but I didnt go to any weddings
Did you know anybody who passed away? Yes but they werent in my family
Did you move anywhere? yes I moved twice
What sporting events did you attend? a few basketball games
What concerts shows did you go to? none
Where do you live now? In Scottsville.
Describe your birthday? I honestly cant remember what I did for my birthday so it must have not been that exciting!
What' s the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2008? Stand on my own two feet for once!
What has/ have been your favorite moment(s)? Realizing what an ass Jon Stovall is and will always be! haha...but every moment with my girls has been my favorite by far!
What's something you learned about your self? I dont need a man in my life.
Any new additions to your family? nope
What was your best month? July
What music will you remember 2008 by? none in particular
Made new friends? Yeah
Any regrets?Staying with Jon too long...I should have moved out earlier than April.
What do you want to change in 2009? Nothing, life is perfect now.
Overall, how would you rate this year? Probably a 10! Things got bad but then they got way better!
Have any life changes in 2008? yes, graduated from WKU
Change your hairstyle? no
Do you have a New Year' s resolution ? I have some in mind....
Did anything embarrassing? haha, Im sure I did.
Buy anything new from eBay? nope
Get married or divorced? nope
Get arrested? nope
Be honest - did you watch American Idol? Maybe a few times??
Start a new hobby? reading which is not exactly a new hobby but something I havent done in a long time!
Been snowboarding? negative.
Drank Starbucks in 2008? yes
Been naughty or nice? nice :) Always!
What are you wishing for in 2009? a full-time teaching job!!!!

Wishful Wednesday: A New Year

Here are a few things I'd like to wish for on this last Wishful Wednesday of 2008!

1. A great year in 2009!

2. Healthy and Happiness for my family.

3. A good job in 2009.

4. No drama in 2009.

5. And lastly, great friends in 2009!

I wish everyone a happy and safe New Year!

Tuesday Talks: Update

Wow. I cant believe that it has been so long since I wrote a blog! I didnt expect to get this behind! I definitely need to play catch up! So...let me see. What has happened since my last blog which I believe consisted of a blind date topic? Well, of course Christmas was great. We had Christmas at my grandma's on the 22nd then the girls were with Jon on the 23rd and came back home on Christmas eve day. It was very fun setting all of their toys out so they could come into the living room and see them Christmas morning. They seemed a little overwhelmed with all of the toys...I dont think they knew where to start! So anyways, on Christmas day we pretty much just lounged around then we went to my step-grandparents house that afternoon. Oh yeah...the girls rode out to my grandma's for a little while with my mom while I tried to organize the chaos that hit my living room that morning! Overall it was a great Christmas...definitely better than last year! I cant even begin to imagjne what next year will be like when the girls are almost 2 1/2 years old! So fun! I have plenty more to blog about but Ill have to save that for later. I havent been on much because I am so into the Twilight series that I can put them down. I finished the third book, Eclipse, last night and I am hoping that my grandma picked me up a copy of the last book, Breaking Dawn, tonight in Bowling Green so that I can start it tonight. They are soooo addicting! I cant put them down. I am so excited to start the last book...you just have to read them yourself! Ive got Sam hooked already. I just dont know what Ill read when I get done with this last book. I may have to draw it out and make it last a little longer haha. Well until next time...

Hmmmm????

Well its only 9:52 p.m. and I am home from my blind date. Is that a bad thing? I dont really think so, we left extremely early at like 5:30, we ate at Longhorn, ran by Walmart to pick up Amy's pictures, and then bowled two games at Southern Lanes. I mean...thats a typical date if I am correct??? Anyways, Chris wasnt feeling that well anyhow so that is the reason we didnt do anything else...even though I dont know what we would have done after bowling unless we would have went to the movies. My date said I could come to his house and watch a movie and hang out but I turned him down and came on home...I mean, dont get me wrong, hes a really nice guy but I had just met him like 3 hours earlier so I didnt want to go to his house yet. Does that make sense? I did have a really good time. He is funny and very nice. He is okay looking...Im just very confused. He has got that curly hair...the type that curls up when he is wearing a hat but then he was wearing what looked to be red wings! LOL. I am calling him the urban cowboy lol! I also forgot to mention that he drives a black Cadillac Escalade which is super nice! but then he talks really country....I have never been this confused...he also listens to just about any type of music from what I can tell, from country to rap. I guess he is just a mystery but for now Im going to stick with urban cowboy lmao. Anyways...I had a great time and I would definitely do it again. I hope I didnt sound like I wasnt interested by turning down his invite to his house but I doubt he took it like that considering we did just meet tonight. He sent me a text message saying that he would like to do it again and for me to text or call anytime so of course I replied back with an okay to all of that and told him to text me too. I guess Ill just see if he asks me out again. Im in no hurry...Im not looking for my prince charming right now in my life. I am extremely tired tonight. My throat is also starting to hurt which hopefully doesnt mean Im getting sick...that would really stink. I had to sub today at ACIC. They didnt call me till 7 am just after I had thought to myself, "wow, I dont have to go in today!" HAHA. I guess I shouldnt have been thinking those kind of thoughts so early in the morning. Overall it was an easy day. Nothing special plus we had a Christmas party in Mrs. Dewitt's class and I got a piece of pizza which is always a plus. Mrs. Dewitt had to be out because her daughter had a seizure so please keep her in your prayers. She came in for the Christmas party with Mrs. Dewitt and seemed fine except that she was very tired. Apparently she has been having them since she was 14 but has only had a few. I guess they are very scary and extremely dangerous so I hope they find out what is causing them so they can prevent them. That would be an awful thing to worry about as parents. I mean, if she fell in the wrong place she could really hurt herself. I didnt want to be nosey so I didnt ask what the dr thought causes them...Im sure they have had or are having tests ran to try and figure it out. I just dont think it would be normal for someone to just have seizures periodically for no reason. At least I got another day in for my first paycheck! I just hate to know that Im subbing because something like that happened. Hopefully she will be okay though. Christmas break has officially started. Im going to be in full force when it comes to subbing when we go back to school...trying to get in as many days as possible...and hopefully scheduled days at that! Those are so much better. Maybe now that I have came in at ACIC at last minute when they really needed somebody they will start to give me more days. I really like that school and everybody is always so nice to me. Mr. Pardue said he said something to Mr. Fisher about getting me more sub days because they have so many subs that have no clue from the way he talks, so that would be perfect. I definitely need to sub at the schools I may possibly get to work one day...it always pays to stay in good with those that can hire you! Samantha has gotten in really good with those at ACPC so I bet she has nothing to worry about...I hope I can say the same about ACIC or JEBMS one day! I praise those that work with those little kids all day because that is a rough job! I guess Im going to take a little medicine maybe and read my Twilight book. Hopefully I can finish it tonight! It is so good and I would recommend it to anyone who loves to read! Its really addicting to be honest. I cant wait to buy the next one. I may run in Walmart tomorrow and pick it up while Im in BG. Well until next time....PEACE! HAHA...OLD SCHOOL RIGHT THERE.

Thankful Thursday!

Today is Thursday so here are the five things I am thankful for today!

1. My baby girls as always!

2. My friend Samantha----who would I chat and email all the time?? LMAO.

3. My new cell phone with the keyboard which Im absolutely crazy about.

4. My computer which I would be lost without at night after the girls have went to sleep.

5. And finally...coca-cola...I guess because I am so stinking thirsty!

I know a few of those are silly...but Im in that kind of mood today, besides...its my blog I CAN WRITE WHATEVER I WANT HAHA!

Nothing Exciting...

I havent posted a blog in a couple of days so I figured now was better than never. Today has been a pretty normal day. I didnt get called to sub so I hung around the house until about 1 o'clock doing a whole lot of nothing with the girls. Then I had an appointment in town, had to go by the grocery store, and then drop of a paper in town, nothing exciting but at least I got out of the house for about an hour and a half. The girls went over to Jon's or wherever it is that Lana takes them when she picks them up on his designated days?? While they were gone I mopped the kitchen floor which was in desperate need of it and I read a little bit on my Twlight book. I also got online and just laid around in the recliner bored as usual. I hate not knowing if I have to work when Im doing the subbing thing. I would much rather be scheduled to sub than allow them to call me in the mornings but I have to do what I have to do. After I woke up at 7:45 this morning I figured I wasnt going to be needed LOL so I got up and made some coffee to get me started. I guess Ill just see if anybody calls in the morning....who knows. Tomorrow is the last day I could work before Christmas break, Im sure everyone is extremely excited about being off for a couple of weeks! I am excited about Christmas...I have a lot of plans so far but nothing yet for New Years. Heck, the way its looking I may end up doing a whole lot of NOTHING...but then again you never know, something may turn up. I have got to remember to take my timesheet to the board of education tomorrow. I saw it in my bag when I was getting my book out so I laid it out so I wouldnt forget to take it either afterschool if I work or sometime during the day. That would suck to forget to turn it in and not get paid! I would die! lol. Oh, by the way...on a very great note...I PASSED THE MATH PRAXIS TEST! I may have already mentioned that in another blog but I dont think so. My friend Amber called me Tuesday morning and told me they were posted so I got online. I was so nervous. I only had to score a 148 and I scored a 171 so I was thrilled. I had been so worried that I failed and I would have to pay another $100 to take it again which would have sucked! Just one more test to go...the social studies one in January. I am so ready to get it over with and get my scores back. I hope I pass! I have been studying a little so I guess we will see if that helps. Well, I am extremely thirsty and getting a little tired surprisingly. I will blog again soon...I will probably have some interesting things to blog about this weekend! Until next time...

A trip to BG!

Here is a picture of the girls with Santa. Emma didnt have a problem with him but Zoie was not very into him...in the other pictures that I didnt post Zoie was crying :(

This is Emma in the ice cream truck in the mall!

Zoie in the ice cream truck...of course she had to be the driver!

The girls in the car in the mall...this was one of their favorites!

Random Information about ME!

40 ODD Things about you!

If you opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 40 things about your friends, and let them learn 40 things about you!

1. Do you like blue cheese? yes
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? nope
3. Do you own a gun? nope
4. Your favorite song? Womanizer by Britney Spears is one of my favorites that I can think of at this particular moment
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointment? depends on what it's for
6. What do you think of hot dogs? I absolutely love them...especially with a lil chili on top!
7. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? coffee of course
8. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? Well, most of my jewelry use to have meaning but not now...except for my Emma and Zoie necklace so its probably my favorite!
9. What one trait do you hate about yourself? Probably my lack of patience!
10. What is your middle name? Ann
11. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment...
I need to put away laundry
I need to pick up the house
I need to lay out my clothes for tomorrow
12. Name 3 things you bought yesterday.
movies
McDonalds
Khakis
13. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink.
coffee
Coca-cola
Cherry water
14. Current worries right now?
money
that "boy"
job
15. Current hate right now? weather
16. How did you celebrate the New Year? I think it was rather boring if I remember correctly
17. Where would you like to go? Jamaica
18. Name one person who will complete this? Ivana...since Sam has already done it
19. Do you own slippers? yes
20. What shirt are you wearing? WKU sweatshirt
21. Can you whistle? no
22. Favorite color? pink
23. Would you be a pirate? no
24. What songs do you sing in the shower? none
25. Favorite girl's name? IDK
26. Favorite boy's name? I like the name Payton
27. What's in your pocket right now? nothing
28. Last thing that made you laugh? Emma and Zoie Im sure
29. Best bedsheets as a child? IDK
30. Worst injury you had? sprained ankle a couple of years ago
31. Do you love where you live? yes!!
32. How many TVs do you have in your house? 2
33. Who is your loudest friend? Chelsey
34. How many dogs do you have? ZERO!
35. Does someone have a crush on you? yes
36. What is your favorite candy? I absolutely love all candy...anything chocolate!
37. Favorite Sports Teams? I don't watch sports
38. What song do you want played at your funeral? I have no idea but definitely something with a good beat lol
39. What were you doing 12 AM last night? sleeping
40. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? I had a text from Sam telling me that school was canceled the first time I woke up...then the second time Amber called to tell me to check my scores and YES I PASSED the math praxis!

I absolutely love this!

I want...
*someone who loves kids.
*someone who likes it when I'm sweet.
*someone that will aggravate me on a daily basis.
*someone that thinks it's cute when I try to be independent.
*someone that texts me to tell me they miss me & mean it.
*someone that loves the little things I do for them.
*someone that loves my family.
*someone that doesn't mind a t-shirt night. :)
*someone that loves to smile & laugh as much as I do.
*someone that doesn't take me too seriously.
*someone that sees the glass as half full.
*someone that's happy.
*someone that cares about me & doesn't have an alterior motive.
*someone that will stand up for me.
*someone that doesn't lie!
*someone that doesn't mind if I go shopping.
*someone that likes getting away every now & then.
*someone that will go with me on a road trip.
*someone that will hold my hand.
*someone that will kiss my forehead.
*someone that cares about people.
*someone that loves my friends (because they're so good to me!)
*someone that understands I've made a few mistakes in my past but I've regretted all of them.
*someone that forgives.
*someone that will hear my side of the story once in a while.
*someone that enjoys late night Wal-mart trips.
*someone that will take silly pictures with me.
*someone that will trust me & believe that I want nothing but the BEST for them.
*someone that wants a future.
*someone that isn't still hung up on their ex.
*someone that believes hard work is the only right way to get something.
*someone that knows money isn't everything & happiness is.
*someone that goes above & beyond for the people he loves.
*someone to make memories with so we can tell our grandkids one day.
*someone that loves me for me... No matter how silly, stubborn, crazy, or mean I am.
*someone that cherishes life for the little moments.
*someone that will be my truest friend.
*someone to help me create my happy-ever-after.

More Pics of My House That I Forgot to Post Before

Here are some more pictures of my house that I was going to post the other day when I posted the first pictures but I totally forgot!

This is my kitchen
The toy room which is nothing but total CHAOS!

The twin's bathroom

My bathroom

Once Again I Question My Actions

Well once again I have let Corey come over! I just cant help it. I am still in in love with him and its hard to let go. Last night we talked about how Calvin was trying to get him to move in with him in Scottsville which would honestly be better for him that living in that apartment by WKU considering his awful grades this semester. I knew as soon as we broke up and he moved to BG he would struggle with school and boy was I right. I hate to be right about something like that but I was. The fraternity...the apartment...its all bad news for him but I guess he has to make his own mistakes and learn from them himself. I know I come off sounding more like his mom but I have been there...I know that he is making mistakes in his life and its hard to just sit back and say nothing. Thats probably why we broke up in the first place...me... trying to give advice, which can get out of hand at times. It amazes me that I still care about him so much. I care about him more than I ever cared about Jon. I guess its because he gave me the attention and treated me the way that I deserved to be treated when we were together. I just dont want to get back to the way I was...were all I could think about was him. I havent been able to successfully date anyone since we broke up because I cant get over him and here I go again, getting attached when I have no idea if there is any possiblity that we can get back together. His friend old me to just wait and see what happens so I guess that is what I am going to do. I dont want to get my hopes up because there is a big chance that nothing will happen between us but I guess I can just continue on like I have been doing for the last couple of months and just see what happens. I know what I want but I know that he doesnt...oh well though. I need to stop stressing over it. I had a fabulous time with him last night and I love spending time with him. I guess that is all I need to worry about right now. Well thats enough of my ranting and raving for now. Im going to try to enjoy this ICE DAY from school. YAH! I hope school isnt called off tomorrow though because I am already scheduled to sub at JEBMS and I cant wait to see my little kiddos! Until next time...

Why?

Why do I stay attached to that one person that I know I shouldnt? Well as you already know from a previous blog this past week, Corey came over on Tuesday...and well he came over again this Friday. I honestly dont know what I am thinking! I know that Corey does not want to get back together...he is over in BG living the college life which is normal for his age but I know that I still have feelings for him. And I know if I continue to see him off and on again with no strings attached I am going to start feeling like I did right after we broke up and I dont want that. It's so hard to explain though because when I am around him I feel so good and I feel like I did when we were dating...happy. Ughhh what a headache! I just dont know what to think. He called me last night for no apparent reason then he called me again today. I said something to him today when I talked to him about coming out to see the girls and he said he would call me after his sisters birthday party but he never did. Oh well...what was I expecting? I just need to clear my head!

Anyways...on another note, I am very excited about tomorrow. I have to take Zoie back to the dr. for a check up then Zoie, Emma, my granny, and I are going to do a little shopping. I need to get a few things at Walmart...especially that book Twilight because I am dying to read the series. Then I thought I would go to the mall and maybe get the girls picture made with Santa plus I need to take Kristen a Bebe pod seat so she can use it with Bailey. So wish us luck on our outting tomorrow! Until next time...LIVE, LAUGH, AND LOVE!

Its finally over yet just beginning!

Im sure that whoever reads my blogs will be relieved to know that my graduation day is finally coming to an end. My graduation is all that I have written about in forever! It feels so good to be a college graduate. It seems like just yesterday that I was packing up the car and heading off to Murray State where I figured I would spend my college years. It's crazy how things change but I believe deep down in my heart that everything happens for a reason even if the reason may seem unclear at the time. I am very proud of myself for overcoming the obstacles that I have faced over the past year. I thought that I would never finish but here I am...a WKU graduate! Graduation was definitely long but it was good to see my fellow classmates and friends because some of them I may never see again which is very sad. I was afraid I might cry at graduation but I stayed strong and did not shed a tear. My eyes, however, did tear up when President Ransdell asked for the single parents to stand up. Graciela who was setting next to be patted my leg for encouragement and a few of my other friends including Sam were telling me to stand up. I was very surprised to see that so few graduates were single parents...I was really expecting more. The things that President Ransdell said about single parents was very touchy and it took everything I had not to cry. I just never expected to be standing as a single parent graduating college at this point in my life. It really made things hit home. I am so thankful for all those that have helped me along this crazy journey that I call my life. Without my family and friends there is no way that I could have made it this far. I am so excited about being done with school yet I am already thinking about my masters degree. I am thinking about taking a class or two in the summer but I may hold off. I just dread paying back my loans already! I am definitely going to take the GRE before the spring semester is out and go from there...it never hurts to be prepared. Well today has definitely been a long day...especially with not as much sleep as I had intended on getting Friday night. I will have to write about Friday night in another blog...I am way too tired to go into that story. I will catch you up tomorrow I promise. Well until next time...

New Years Resolutions are right around the corner!

As I was looking at my planner earlier, I realized that new years resolutions are just around the corner. It is hard to believe that it is already the 12th day of December. I think its a good time to start thinking about what my new years resolution will be this year. I want it to be something meaningful and something that I will definitely go through with. I have made numerous resolutions over the years and none of them have ever lasted longer than a couple of days. Anybody have any good suggestions? I thought about saying that I wouldnt drink alcohol anymore but then I thought to myself. "im not an alcoholic." I mean yes I do like to have a drink with my meal every once in awhile when I go out to eat but its not a habit or anything...so I decided I needed another resolution. Lately I have been wanting the girls to go to church with my mom on the weekends when they are at home with me so I have been considering maybe making my new years resolution to go to church on those sundays with the girls too. I think sticking to every other Sunday would be more likely to happen than saying I was going to go every Sunday...not that I shouldnt go every Sunday but I know how I like to sleep in and I want to make a resolution that I will stick too. Maybe going to church every other Sunday at least will be my new years resolution. I still have plenty of time to think about it so Im in no hurry but I have been giving it a little thought lately though. My life has changed drastically in the last 8 months and this is going to be a fresh start in the new year. I want things to be different and better in 2009! My life is fabulous right now but it will be nice to start the year in my new house with no boyfriend or fiance to worry about, with the two loves of my life, Emma and Zoie. What more does a mom need? Well enough about that...but be sure to start thinking about those new years resolutions because it is just around the corner. This is probably my last post for the day....but I am sure I will have a lot to say come Sunday after graduation on Saturday!!!! Until next time...

Decisions!

So my plans for graduation include going out to eat with some friends then out to the local bars to celebrate, but as you can probably guess, Im thinking about changing my mind. I dont know what has gotten into me but I think I would just rather go out to eat and go home. The bar scene is just not for me anymore. Plus I dont want to spend the night in Bowling Green...I want to sleep in my comfy bed and I also want to get a good nights sleep. I just dont know what to do. I sent Kirby a text message to ask her but she isnt answering. She must be working. She doesnt even get off work till 9 so I was thinking about asking her if she wanted to go eat when she got off work then just go home. I know that sounds lame but I cant help it. And you know what? I dont feel bad that I feel like that. I can do whatever I want to do because this is my life and no one elses. I miss my girls so bad when they are done with Jon. I cant stand it and I cant stop thinking about them. I wish they didnt have to go but I know they do. I have no idea what Im going to do tomorrow. I wish Kirby would text me back so we can discuss it. I need to get things straight so I can let everybody know what the plans is. Ugh, such a headache. Well until next time...

Quote of the Day

To believe in yourself and to follow your dreams, to have goals in life and a drive to succeed, and to surround yourself with the things and the people that make you happy - this is success!

-Sasha Azevedo

Fabulous Friday

Friday is finally here! The last day of my long but paying work week. LOL. It is so boring to sub but it feels so much better than working all those hours for FREE! I am finishing up my work week @ the high school today. I am subbing for Mrs. Brown all day except for 6th skinny when I am taking over for Ms. Pierce. Luckily I get a pretty long lunch break today, which is always a plus. I made egg salad last night so Im anxious to see how that turned out. Im kind of scared! I did it just like Erica told me to so if it is not any good Im going to blame her. I have been forward to this day all week because tomorrow of course is graduation. I have waited so long for this day, the only thing I wish I could change is the weather. I would have loved to graduate in May instead so that it would be warm but oh well, beggers cant be chosers. I will have to get up early again tomorrow but it will be worth it. Im thinking we will leave town around 8:00 since I am suppose to be there at 9:00. I am trying to decide where I want to eat afterwards and O'Charleys is sounding pretty good. I wish the girls were older and could come see me graduate but they are at Jon's this weekend plus they are just too small to sit through something so long and have to be so quiet. It would be torture to them. I will have lots of pictures for them to look at once they are older though. They will be so proud of their momma!

Last night I didnt do much. I left JEBMS, went to pick up the girls and came home. Unfortuntely when I got home I had some wind damage. I had no idea the wind had picked up so much and it blew a piece off of my house! It also blew over my new primitive piece on my porch and broke the glass in my lantern! Luckily it did not break the bulb and the latern still works, it actually doesnt look bad without glass...it looks fine but that still makes me so mad. I have also decided that next year I am going to put wreaths up on my windows instead of the sprays because the wind keeps blowing them and messing them up! They look funny if they are not on their straight I think. Well, my mom came out yesterday afternoon before the ballgame then they ended up canceling the game because it was sleeting so she ended up staying till 7ish. We cooked hamburger steaks with cheese and mushrooms and potato wedges. It was a really good supper. I had originally been planning on hotdogs haha, so it was definitely better than my original plan. The girls slept okay last night...I mean at least I got a couple of good hours of sleep. Well I think I have written enough. Until next time...

My New House

Here are some pictures of my new house! As soon as this weather straightens up I will post some of the outside! Emma and Zoie's room...and yes they do have a tv...they will need it after Santa comes!
My bedroom...where all the magic happens lol NOT!

My living room

My dining area

The dining area again...dont you just love the hutch that my mom and I redone?

Thankful Thursday

So I got this idea from another blog that I was reading...

5 people I am thankful for...

1. Emma and Zoie---I cant imagine life without them.

2. My mom---She has stayed by my side through the thick and thin.

3. My grandparents---I dont know where I would be without them.

4. My dad---He has really stepped up and became a great dad and grandpa!

5. My sisters and my friends---Even though my sisters can drive me a little bonkers I love them to death and my friends are the bomb! They are always there when I need to talk or need a shoulder to cry on.

So every Thursday I will add another 5 things I am thankful for...so just wait and see what the list may consist of...you just never know with me. Until next time.

Back @ JEBMS

Today I am back at JEBMS! YAH! I was suppose to sub for Mrs. Witcher...then they changed me to Coach D then by the time I got to school I was switched to Coach Wanta. So here I sit...in the gym...doing nothing until second period because he has planning first. It should be an easy day. At least I dont have to keep them quiet LOL. I would have loved to be Coach D though so I could see my little kiddos. I miss them already! HAHA. Anyways. So there is only 2 days until graduation which is still hard to believe. I am ready though. Im hoping we have a lot of fun Saturday night. Gina is sick so hopefully she will be feeling better by then. I guess Ill just wait and see. Part of me doesnt even want to go out to be honest. Id just rather come home in a way. I dont know what has gotten into me but that is all I ever want to do these days...sit at home. How boring am I? Oh well. Until next time...which Im sure will be later on today!

Zoie

Now that I have written about Emma, here are a few things about Zoie.

* She is very outgoing...the center of attention for sure. She loves to show off, no matter what she is doing.
* Dancing is her thing! She absolutely loves music and will dance to whatever is on. They both have stockings that play music and she will push the button, hold onto the stocking like its a stuffed animal and dance forever. It is so cute.
* She has been sleeping in her bed a little more...she will at least sleep in there for 2 to 3 hours. The other night she actually slept in her bed until 5:30 in the morning. I woke up about 4:30 and got scared because she hadnt woke up yet. It freaked me out! I went in there to check on her and then an hour later she woke up of course. It may be crowded in my bed with them two but they did sleep till 8 am the other morning so I cant complain really.
* Zoie is starting to talk a little more. She says several things such as ball, bath, momma, ninny, and of course she calls all men da....so sorry Jon, dont get too excited! LOL.
* She also loves to feed herself and she eats the same things as Emma, which is great. Hopefully they will always like the same types of foods because that will definitely make my job easier as a cook haha.

Like I said before, I could write all day, but its time for me to wrap this blog up for today. More to come though, dont worry. Until next time...

Emma

Well, the twins are now going on 17 months as of the 23rd of this month. It is hard to believe they are that old now. It seems like just yesterday they were coming home from the hospital. A lot has changed since then and I am thankful for everything that has changed, thats for sure. We are much better off now and I am thankful for everything and every opportunity that has came our way.

Here are a few things about Emma to let you know how she is doing these days...

* She is walking everywhere...it took her a little longer than Zoie to get the hang of it but now she is cruising. She will probably be running full speed ahead before long.
* Emma is very jealous. When they stay at my grandma's, if my grandma is playing with Zoie, Emma will make her take her hand and she will lead her away from where ever Zoie is playing so that she can have some alone time with her.
* When Zoie has a toy that Emma wants she is very sneaky. She will find another toy, act interested in it, and then give it to Zoie so that Zoie is distracted and Emma can then take the toy Zoie had and play with it.
* She loves to eat just about anything...as long as she can feed it to herself...she definitely does not want to be feed. Bananas are one of their favorite foods actually these days. They both also really like any of the Gerber meals which is great because they are both quick and easy if I dont feel like cooking.
* As for sleeping, that has not been going very well. The past couple of nights I have actually gotten Emma to sleep in her baby bed for a bit but then she has to sleep with me the rest of the night. Its very crowded but as long as they are asleep Im okay with that.

Well I guess that is enough for now. I could write all day about the things they do so Ill be sure to write another blog later! Until next time...

A New Idea

So I was reading Ivana Clay's blog and she gave me a great idea to write a blog for each of the girls...giving everyone an update on what they are up to at this age. It was really cute so I think Im going to do the same!

Sub Days!

I forgot to mention that I got another sub day today! I was so glad they called ahead of time instead of this morning. I wasnt expecting to be this busy with subbing since school gets out next Friday for Christmas break. So far I will have 6 days on my next check and I still have 4 available days next week so you never know. Im hoping I stay busy...maybe have 10 days on my check. That would be great! Samantha said they told her that we would be reimbursed once we get our raise so Im pretty excited about that. That reminds me that I need to email someone at the board of education about certification....I almost forget. Well I guess I better get that done. Until next time...

Very Random LOL

So yesterday I was subbing at the high school and one of Corey's best friends was in my last class of the day. Well we got to talking about Corey and I decided to send him a text message and his friend sent him a really funny one from my phone also. Well one thing led to another and we kept texting and then I saw him in town as I was headed to Chevron to get some gas. To my surprise he came to my house. WOW. I totally wasnt expecting that. It was very random but fabulous. I think seeing him was exactly what I needed. I dont want a relationship bc of the headache but it was nice to see him. It would be a lie if I said I still didnt care about him but he has a lot of growing up to do himself and I know he isnt wanting a relationship either. We had such a good time together when we dated...I just wish things wouldnt have ended like they did. Maybe one day he will get it together and we will get back together. Im not saying that Im going to sit back and wait for him but I would love for us to get back together. He made me extremely happy and Id love to feel like that again when I date someone. Anyways...I guess you could say he brought me my graduation gift lol. Speaking of graduation...that is only 3 days away! Im so excited. I am definitely going to have some fun that night. Me, Jessica, Val, Kirby, Gina, and maybe Ashley C. are all suppose to be going out to eat and then out to the bars! It will be so much fun. Well I guess Ive written enough for now. Im going to continue watching the ALC kids and wait patiently for lunch! Until next time...

Extremely bored with a headache!

Well today I am at the high school subbing for several different teachers. I have got the worst headache...not to mention the fact that Ive had it all day! I got up thinking I needed caffeine but obviously that wasnt it because I drank some coffee this morning. Im definitely ready for lunch. Last night I got called by the primary center and then this morning the middle school called me. WOW. I didnt expect to be this busy my first week. I got a ton of days scheduled at the high school...honestly I got enough scheduled that I wouldnt have to answer the phone if I didnt want too. Im debating on answering tomorrow or not. Id like to spend the day at home with the girls so I might not. I mean, Ive got 4 days in this week. I guess Ill just wait and see how I feel tomorrow. I got an email back about the job that may be opening at Greenwood. Apparently the teachers husband got a job in another state so if they sell their house she is going to go ahead and move so it all depends on if they sell their house. The lady that emailed me back asked me to give her a number and she would keep me in mind if the lady does in fact move before the semester is out. That would be really nice. I mean, subbing pays good, but Id like a big paycheck all summer too. Plus some health insurance! Oh well, you cant have it all. Well until next time...

Working Hard for the Money!

To my surprise I got called to sub today at the intermediate center. Unfortunately they didnt call till 8 am which was shocking, so I had to rush to get ready. I learned my lesson though, from now on Im taking a shower at night and laying out some clothes incase they call then I wont be so rushed. My grandma came down and picked up the girls which helped me out a ton. I had just made a big pot of coffee to wake me up and I was going to make the girls pancakes. Guess I will another day when Im not called in to sub. Ive been emailing Samantha all morning since she is the art teacher at the primary center today. I guess she is just as bored as I am. The teacher I am subbing for has planning the last period of the day so Im hoping I can slide out early so I can run an important errand. Then home to relax as usual...going to cook some supper tonight and watch some of my shows if there are any on tonight that are new. Im glad I got to sub...just one more day to make money, which is something I am very excited about. It would be awesome if I had 10 days of sub pay on my first paycheck...I wouldnt know what to do with myself. Oh my gosh, one of the girls slept in their bed till 5:30 this morning! I was so happy! I couldnt believe it. I hope that happens again tonight. Im sure after they go to Jon's this weekend Ill have to start all over though, thats normally how it goes. Ugh...what a headache. Well Im going to get back to emailing Sam. Until next time...

Bored

Today has been an extremely boring day. I figured something would come up and we would go visiting or something but nothing at all happened. We have been at home for over 24 hours now...oh well though...I guess it beats working for free haha plus I got to catch up on some quality time with the girls. They have been really good today. Got up from their nap a little grumpy but other than that everything has been good. I guess its weird for them to spend a whole day at home with just me. We normally go to my moms or grandmas on Sundays and today we were lazy. I hate to admit it but I have wore my pjs all day long...I did put on a clean pair after my shower though lol. Im so glad Friday was my last class at WKU. It sucked though because they kept us till going on 1 oclock in the afternoon! It was such a drag. Anyways, after that I ate at Applebees with some girls from class which was fun. Then I went to the mall to see about getting something for graduation but I couldnt find a thing...guess Ill just wear some dress pants and a sweater. It will be so cold anyway. Well Im not really in the mood to type a blog...maybe tomorrow night. Im going to head to bed so that I feel good when I get up early in the morning Im sure. I think Ill make some pancakes in the morning...yum. Sounds delicious. Until next time...

Coming to an End

Today is slowly coming to an end. It is almost time for 6th period which is just planning period then study period to end the day. I went to Dumplins and picked up our lunch which Coach D bought for me. Then they surprised me with a cake! I was so excited. It said "congratulations ms. jones" How sweet! I am going to miss all the people here so much even though I will be subbing because it wont be quite the same. I hope I get a job here next year...how fabulous would that be?? I went by the grocery store when I went to get lunch and picked up cookies for my 7th period class. Well until next time...

My Last Day...

The day is finally here! My last day of student teaching is today! It felt good to get up this morning, knowing that I would not have to work for NOTHING anymore. It will be nice to get up next week and know that on January 2nd I will be getting a real paycheck...it may not be much but its better than what Im making now which is ZERO. I dread going to main campus tomorrow but at least that is my last class too. Im hoping we wont have to stay long. Some of the girls in my class and I are planning on going to Applebee's for lunch to celebrate. I also have to run to walmart and to the mall while Im in BG. It will be nice to relax a little this weekend and some next week. So far Im only scheduled 2 days next week but you never know, I may get called in. Well until next time...

Student Teaching

I GOT AN A IN STUDENT TEACHING! My supervisor just left and everything went great. Boy, does it feel good to be finished...plus my team is buying me lunch tomorrow. How great is that?? Im going to miss everybody here but I am definitely ready to move on and make some money! Until next time...

Long Night

OMG! I am sooooooooo TIRED. The girls did not sleep at all last night. I am exhausted. All they want to do is drink all throughout the night so Ive made a decision. That stops tonight. I know its going to be rough but Im getting up once every hour and a half to get them something to drink. Im thinking if I can hold them off till at least 5 am for a couple of nights then they should stop wanting something to drink all night. I mean, I had to do the same thing with the bottle so whats the difference? Not to mention that one of them drank so much that their diaper overflowed and I had to get up and change her at 4 something this morning. I definitely have to get this situation under control, Im sure hoping that Lana and them will do the same thing when they go over there on the weekends. That makes things difficult because I have no idea what they do with them over there, So anyways, it starts tonight. I have to if I ever want to get a good nights sleep again. I dont mind giving them something at around 5 am because that will make them sleep longer but they cant be waking up every hour wanting a new sippy...that makes for a long night for everybody. Wish me luck!
Yesterday when I left school I had a zillion errands to run...I didnt end up at home until 4:15ish. I did get a wreath though, thanks to Samantha's mom! It is so pretty, plus I got a great deal on it. I would recommend Joyce's Craft Shop to anyone who is looking for a cute Christmas wreath. I was expecting it to be high since its a flower shop but it wasnt at all. I am super excited about it. It was the only thing I needed to complete my outside Christmas decorations. Now I just have to get some new bows on my sprays and wreath which isnt that important this year. I may wait and put them on next year because I already have everything up for this year. I guess Ill just see what I decide to do. Today would have normally been my last faculty meeting but luckily we dont have one! I am so grateful! I really didnt want to stay here any longer than I have too, Im so ready to get starting substituting so that I can make some money! I have 2 days scheduled for next week which is great. Rachel is suppose to be riding home with me today because basketball practice is cancelled. I guess we will go home and cook some supper. I dont know what yet...maybe some shake and bake chicken with potatoes and mac and cheese. Sounds pretty good I think. I was going to make some alfredo but I know she wont ever eat that. Well I have written enough for now, expect another blog later because today is going to be a super long day! Just one more day left after today is over! Oh yeah! Until next time...

Some of my Favorite Quotes

"People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost."
-H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow."
-Anon.

"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."
-Anon.

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything."
-Anon.

"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up."
-James Baldwin

"Many people hold onto a grudge because it offers the illusion of power and a perverse feeling of security. But in fact, we are held hostage by our anger. It is never too late to forgive. But you can forgive too soon. I am especially wary of what I call "saintly forgiveness." Premature forgiveness is common among people who avoid conflict. They're afraid of their own anger and the anger of others. But their forgiveness is false. Their anger goes underground. I define forgiving as letting someone back into your heart. This returns us to a loving state -- and not merely within the relationship -- we feel good about ourselves and the world. True forgiveness isn't easy, but it transforms us significantly. To forgive is to love and to feel worthy of love. In that sense, it is always worthwhile."
-Robert Karen

Today's Quote

"Some people never find it, some only pretend, but I just want to live happily ever after every now and then."

-Jimmy Buffett

Day 3: The Countdown Continues!

Today marks the beginning of day 3. Only 2 days left after today is over!
Yesterday afternoon my grandmother and I took the girls to the doctor to get the rest of their flu shot since they had to take it in 2 doses. They did really well and behaved in the waiting room. On the way home we stopped and picked up some KFC and headed back to the house. I was so mad at myself when we got home because I forgot to stop by the pharmacy and pick up a prescription and there it was, 15 minutes till closing time! Luckily, my grandpa said he wouldnt mind getting up this morning and picking it up for me so the girls will have it. I could have smacked myself I was so mad. I guess because it was already dark out and getting late that I wasnt even thinking about it. Normally when I take them to the doctor it is early in the morning so this appointment threw me out of wack! But anyways, so I went home, ate supper, fed the girls, gave bathes then relaxed until they fell asleep. For some reason I am overly exhausted today. I feel like I could just pass out right here on my computer. The girls didnt sleep any different than they normally do so I dont know what the deal is with me today. I had a really crazy dream this morning which gave me a small headache and startled me this morning...maybe that is why I feel so tired...I dont know.
Last night as I lay in the floor with the girls as they dozed off to sleep I was watching one of my most favorite shows...Jon and Kate Plus 8. I absolutely love that show. I found out last night that they recently wrote a book which I am dying to read! I guess Ill be heading to Barnes and Noble before long to pick me up a copy. It amazes me how someone can raise so many little kids, while doing the most normal things in the world such as taking a simple vacation. That show really gives me inspiration because at times I feel like its soooooo hard with just two but then I think, "what if I had 6 more??!!" Anyways, I just love the show, its always an adventure and so entertaining. So, Will sent me a text message last night. I didnt reply. I just dont know what to say. I guess Ill see if he emails me today and go from there. Im going to sit back and enjoy my cappuccino, study for my upcoming social studies praxis exam, and make sure my portfolio is in line. My supervisor will be coming by to give me my final grade tomorrow! YIPPIE! I have to go get some picture developed today and pay some bills then I am home free to maybe take a nap! Until next time...which will more than likely be sooner than later.

ShOuToUtS

I want to take this time to give a few shoutouts to some of my really good friends that read my fabulous blogs on occassion.

Erica- Thank you for being such a great friend. Your always there for me when I need to talk or just for a good laugh. I definitely wish we could see each other more. I am glad that we have remained such good friends since I left Oak Grove. You are one of my best friends and I hope we continue to be friends forever. If you ever need anything Im here for you!

Samantha- Well, what can I say? We have definitely became close friends over the last few years. We have been there for each other during stressful papers and finals in college even though we havent had any classes together and not to mention all of the crazy drama that we have experienced in our lives over the last couple of years! Its been nice knowing that I have someone to vent to when things get stressful. Its hard to believe that in just 12 days, we will be walking that line together! Thanks for always being there for me. Your a great friend.


More shoutouts to come later...its time to get out of here for the day! Until next time...

Just Wondering

So why doesnt a guy get the hint when you play it off like your just really stressed and have too much going on in your life? I mean...HELLO...red flag! That means...LEAVE ME ALONE. DUH. So, obviously that is not going to cut it. Looks like Im going to have to toughen up a little bit. I just hope I dont have to get mean...Id hate to open that can of worms.

First Day of December

Well, I had hoped that today would be our first snow day of the year but unfortunately it wasn't. As the alarm clock went off this morning I dreaded getting out of bed...gosh was that break from school nice last week. I could definitely get use to having a few more days off. I was surprised to see that there was actually snow on the ground...what a great way to start off the month of December, maybe that means that we will get a good snow this month, hopefully we will have a white Christmas this year! As for the snow...today marks the first day of my last week of student teaching! I am extremely excited...even though I am scared because I do not have a job, I figure...Ive been living without a job for so long Im sure everything will be okay. Im ready to get back into substitute teaching so that I will have a paycheck! How fabulous that will be! It will also be nice to spend some time with the girls during the week. I missed them so much this weekend while they were gone. I was so ready for them to get home last night. I dont know what I will do next summer when they go to their dads for a whole week. Maybe we can work something out so that does not happen until they are a little older. I know he doesnt want to watch them for an entire week plus I honestly dont think it will be good for them to be away from me for so long. I guess Ill just wait and see what happens when that time comes. Its a long ways away anyhow. Today I have to take the girls for the last part of their flu shot. I hate taking them to get shots, I am definitely ready for that to be over with. So yesterday I kind of ignored Will when he would text message me. I kept my messages very short and uninterested. I just dont know what to tell him. How do you tell someone that you dont like them? I havent had to do that in such a long time I have no idea what to do. I dont want to be mean and I dont want to hurt his feelings but I think I will. I just dont know what to say but I need to say something soon. I cant stand it. I want to stop thinking about it but I cant until I tell him how I feel. I know it would be very impersonal if I told him on text message or email but I dont have the heart to tell him face to face. Im definitely going to need some advice on how to tell him. So if anybody has any suggestions please feel free to share your opinions with me! Well I guess I have typed enough for now. Im sure I will be writing a lot of blogs this week because I am sure time will go by extremely slow since its my last week. Until next time...

Decision

Im done trying to make a connection I have decided. I hung out with Will last night. I thought Id give him another shot. I kept thinking "maybe just maybe I will start to gain some chemistry with him," but of course that didnt happen. Ive decided that chemistry is just not something that can be forced. He is a great guy...possesses all of the qualitities that any girl would want but there is nothing there. There is absolutely no connection! I get it in my mind that I want to hang out with him but then once he is here I think about something else I would rather do. He would do absolutely anything I say and that annoys me now. Years ago that would be like the number one quality but now I want a guy that can be themselves and definitely stand up to me. I know that sounds weird but I want a guy that is his own person...not someone that will change and do anything I say. Thats boring. I need a guy that has a personality. Ugh, this is so giving me a headache. I am so sick of guys all together. Im at the point where I dont even know if I want to be dating anyone seriously. I do want to date but Im not at the point where I want to be with someone 24/7. Ive been there, done that...and look what happened...it failed...miserably and it taught me a lot about relationships. I open up too fast and that is something I will never do again. Im not letting someone in so that they can break my heart. Im sick of having my heart broken. I deserve better than that. I deserve to be treated with respect. I want a guy that knows what he wants in life, has his head on his shoulders. Someone mature is what I need...but are there any mature guys left in this world? Does any guy know what he wants out of life? NO! Or at least if there are, I sure havent met any guys that possess those qualities. There is one guy however that Im having some strange feelings for. I dont really know what my feelings mean. This guy is one of my good friends, I turn to this person when Ive had a bad date or a bad day in general. I sorta feel like they are having these feelings too but then again I dont know. Its an awkward situation. I dont know if I should express my feelings or just leave them alone. I dont want to make things weird between us but then again...what if it could turn into something? Ugh, such a headache! haha. I just dont know what to do. I think I will just sit back and see what happens though. Im in no hurry and I know they are not either...so why rush things? Why not just see what happens? If things are meant to be then they will find a way, right? Or at least that is what they say...maybe that is true. I definitely think that things happen for a reason, sometimes its just hard to see what that reason is at the time and no matter how bad it is, it always works itself out. Ive been through some tough times...experienced a lot of heart ache but everything has turned around in my life. I am happy with were I am. I have two beautiful healthy daughters that I love with everything I have...Im fixing to graduate from college! And I have some great friends and family. What more could I want? I would be just as content if nothing changed in my life right now. I love it. Well I guess I have written enough for today. I need to do a few things around this house so until next time...

40 Minutes

I am so excited about Thanksgiving break that I had to do a 40 minute countdown! I cant wait to leave school today and be off for 5 days, that will so so fabulous. Then I only have 4 days left of student teaching, which is actually kind of scary when you think about being out there in the real world looking for a job! AAAAHHH! Anyways, enough of my complaining. Happy Thanksgiving once again!

Thanksgiving

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!

Laying in the Bed

Last night I was laying in my bed thinking about everything that has happened in my life and those things that I want to happen so badly. I went to my sisters basketball game last night. They played Barren County Middle School...which made me extremely nervous because of course, that is the team that Jon coached last year. I didnt know what to expect. Would people know who I was? Would they recognize the twins? I had no idea what would happen. I was even more worried that Jon would actually show up and make my sister a nervous wreck. Luckily, that did not happen though. I figured he knew better than to show his face at an Allen County game. As I walked into the game, I could feel the stares...not like that doesnt happen when we do anywhere, because normally it does with twins. People want to stare...they cant help it...twins are a miraculous thing...something out of the norm. After walking in and taking my seat I decided to go get something to drink. After coming back into the gym and taking my seat, one of the parents of a BC bball player came over and sit down to say hi because she had recognized the twins and had not seen them since last basketball season. To my surprise she led the conversation right into the Jon and Kim story. She was telling us how much better of a season the girls were having this year...implying that last year was no good with Jon as coach. She had heard about Jon but she had no heard the whole story of course. I guarantee she only came over to see us because she wanted to scoop, but that is okay with me. I think everyone should know the truth and know exactly what kind of horrible person he really is. She even said that she had heard he did drugs...wow! The crazy things people are saying about him in Barren County. I think its hilarious how he acts like everyone loves him to death...when really I dont know one person that isnt related to him that likes him. That amazes me. I dont see how someone can go around with so many enemies and continue to think that they are such a great person.
I know that it is really time for me to come to peace with everything that has happened, but it is so hard. I want to come to peace with it, I really do, I just dont know how to do that. I have moved on...I would never in a gizillion years get back together wih him if he begged...but how can I accept this woman who is his girlfriend when she messed around with him when I was living in his home and had his children? I could never do that to someone, not in a million years. I dont think its acceptable to live your life that way. I cant get over it. No matter how hard I try. I want to be a forgiving person but how can I when I have so many unanswered questions? Now that I look back, I think, "why did I put up with his behavior for so long?" I guess in a way I am mad at myself for putting up with it. I should have moved out a lot sooner...I could have been so much happier for so much longer if I would have thought about the girls and myself instead of trying to please him. Someone like him cant be pleased. Kim may think that she is doing it all just right but she will get old...haha no pun intended! LOL. He will get bored with her...he will need someone different because that is how he is. He is just like his mother and grandmother...neither one of them could be pleased by their husbands, they had to run around on them too. Not to mention all of his other weird family members that do who knows what with who knows who. I guess its in his blood. To be an adultress loving idiot. The funny thing is, he doesnt think he is an adultress because he wasnt the married one. He doesnt see it as a sin on his part. Apparently another adultress told him that...I mean...even if she wouldnt have been married...he was engaged. He had promised me a good life and that he would be faithful and what did I get? None of that. Yea, he may have paid the bills but that doesnt justify anything else that he did. A 25 year old "man"..more like a baby if you ask me, shouldnt be going out to the bars, getting so drunk he cant even come home. Or supposably spending the night with a friend just about every Monday night. Ughh...I was so dumb. How could I have been so dumb? I dont blame myself for what he did. There is no way it was my fault. I was a good fiance. I did everything one could to make him happy, but nothing was enough for him. I could never be his "mother" and that is exactly what he wants in life...someone to be his second momma. Someone to give him money, take care of him, feed him, and baby him. He doesnt want a girlfriend, a fiance, or a wife. He has dated plently of nice women...women that would make great wives and he has done nothing but hurt them, over and over again. I definitely believe in Karma...what goes around comes around and when it does he will then understand that he gets what he deserves. No crime will go unpunished. Never. Maybe one day I will be able to come to terms with everything that has happened. Maybe one day, but unfortuntely I dont see that day coming too soon. Until next time...

Monday

Today is Monday...the Monday before Thanksgiving, which means a short school week! It is hard to believe that I only have 6 days of student teaching left! This morning I got up and went to the health department to get a free flu shot. I was thinking that I was going to get one but I changed my mind when I saw they were giving them away for free today only. I expected that I would have to wait a long time but I got right in. Surprisingly there were quite a few people there already and it was only 7:30. This afternoon we are taking Emma and Zoie to get their Christmas pictures made. We are taking them to Nikki Wolfe. I am excited to get them made, I just hope that they are in good moods this afternoon. I also hope that is stops raining before then! It has been pouring down all morning. I am thinking about getting my picture made with them if I look descent this afternoon. If it doesnt stop raining my hair will look awful! Rachel has a ball game today against Barren Co. but I dont think I will go. Not only do I not want to see all those Barren County people but I also dont think Ill feel like it after going to get pictures made, especially with the weather like it is today.
My weekend was pretty boring. I didnt do anything exciting. Just stayed at home and caught up on some relaxation and spent time with the girls. It was nice being able to lay around and not have to worry about going anywhere. I figured we should catch up on some rest since we will be going everywhere on Thanksgiving. It is hard to believe that it is already Thanksgiving. It seems like it was just summer. WOW, time flies. Well I guess I have written enough for now. Im sure I will be writing a lot of blogs later though because I am just observing this week and next week at school. We are watching a movie today so I have nothing to do! Until next time...

Another Week

Well, another week is coming to an end...for school that is. Today is my last full week of student teaching. Next week we only come 2 days and then 4 days the next week and I am out of here! 6 MORE DAYS! I am so excited but then again I will miss being here everyday. At least I will be subbing so hopefully I will be here at the middle school a lot. I cant believe I have been here this long, now that I look back it seems like it has went so fast! I am definitely ready to make some money. That is for sure. Wednesday was my last official KTIP. Mrs. Mefford will be back the week after Thanksgiving to grade my portfolio and give me my final grade along with Coach D. I am glad that is over and it feels so good to have my teacher work sample turned in too. I need to do one more reflection for my EDU 489 class and then I will be completely finished with that class too. I guess I may write that during study period today so I can get that turned in. Mr. Fisher was suppose to observe me today but he never showed. I guess something must have came up. I havent seen him around since early this morning. Well I guess I have written enough. I am so ready to get home and get in my PJs. It is that kind of weather when I want to crawl up on the couch with my girls and snuggle in the warm house. Well, until next time..

Unbelievable

Well, this weekend consisted of nothing but worrying. Friday night I found out that Jon had his old girlfriend Kim over at his house with the girls. Boy, did I go off! I was sooooo mad. Then I heard he was moving to Glasgow which would be fabulous but unfortunately I dont think that is happening unless he gets married to her. Her husband informed me that in their divorce papers....which are not FINAL yet...that Kim can not have any over night visitors when their kids are in the home. I have this really weird feeling that he will marry her. He spent the four day weekend for election day in the Smokey Mountains with her and her kids while he left Emma and Zoie with his mother. Isnt he just a GREAT FATHER?! He wants to bitch and complain that he doesnt get enough time with them then go spend time with somebody else's freaking kids instead of his own! Gosh that makes me sick...I hate his guts. I dont see how somebody can care so little but try to make everyone think he is the best dad is the entire world. How damn pathetic. The thought of him makes me just want to throw up. I am so sick of his bullcrap. I am sick of his family acting like he is something special. He is just a product of his environment. He thinks its okay to act like an idiot because that is what his mother has always done to his father. And then his father cant say anything because he let her do it...stayed with her while she ran around on him with everybody and their brother at AO Smith. GROSS. I dont see how people can get married and then continue to run around and act like that. I mean, if they made one mistake I could understand but I dont understand when they continue to act like whores and treat their spouses like that. I know that Jon was not my husband but I was his fiance and we did have 2 children together...I deserved more respect than that. I just want to know everything. I honestly dont know if I will ever be able to make peace with the situation until I know the truth...the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I know he was seeing her way before I left because of the psychic tape that I listened to, but I want to know when it started, why it started and exactly what happened. I know those are things that I will never know but I can always hope that maybe someday someone will tell me. I just wish they would break up. I hate his guts and I would never get back with him but as long as he is with the woman he cheated on me with then I will never be able to get along with him. I can not be civil with somebody that has no regard for someone else's feelings...and I dont just mean anybody...I mean the mother of his children's feelings. He could have at least had some respect for me if no one else. It just stresses me out. I wish I could erase him from my past but keep my beautiful girls, but I know that is not possible. They are beautiful and smart because of me and my family not because of him because he was never around...and still continues to never be around. His mother is their caregiver when they are over at his house or supposably there. He does nothing and is not capable of doing nothing. You cant teach an old dog new tricks. Until next time...

ANOTHER BLOG

13 days to go! The countdown continues. Today is my last day of school for this week. Tomorrow is the big job fair at WKU. I am hoping the rain will hold off tomorrow, I hate going to campus when it is raining. Especially when I am all dressed up! That will really stink. I have my TWS completed, therefore I really dont have anything to work on while my cooperating teacher is teaching. I cant decide what I am going to do tomorrow night. Im thinking Im going to stay in and do laundry, clean house, and get a good nights sleep for the Praxis on Saturday. Crazy Clarissa called me last night...dont really know the point of her call...she is slightly insane. Apparently I am to blame for her and Luc's problems even though I havent spoke to either of them in months...it drives her absolutely crazy that I speak to Dana, Luc's 41 year old ex-girlfriend. I think its pretty pathetic that she has to call and fuss at me for talking to Luc's girlfriend....I mean, what kind of relationship does she think they are going to have if she is blaming me for their problems? Of course, its never going to work out for them because Luc tells Dana one thing and Clarissa another. I cant help it that Dana tells me these things. Im easy to talk to...what can I say? Anyways, I still cant figure out what the point in her call was. I guess so that Id know how crappy her life is. I dont know. I honestly dont have time for her crap. Im sick of immature people and their drama. I have enough going on in my own life. Well Im off of here for a bit. I need to do a few things. Until next time...

14 DAYS TO GO!

The countdown continues! ONLY 14 DAYS TO GO! I think this countdown is actually making the time go by slower but that is okay...it will get here soon enough.

My Weekend

My weekend was just a normal weekend. I stayed at home all weekend. Friday night my mom brought over some Dumplins and we hung out at the house then Saturday we went over to my grandmas for supper. Sunday morning the girls went to church with my mom and I went to the grocery store. Then we all went to my gmas for lunch with the rest of the family and then we hung out at home. My landlord called me this weekend and gave me my entire month of rent back that I had already paid for 11/15 through 12/15 which was fabulous. I was only expecting about $200 back because I had to give her a 30 day notice. Plus she bought my stove for $100 so that was great! I am very excited about get my money back. Other than all that, I did laundry and cleaned house...in general I just enjoyed being HOME. This week at school I am only teaching 3rd and 4th period. I am dropping flex today thank goodness because I wasnt too excited about teaching economics. Only 15 days to go! WOW. Time is starting to fly and I am so excited. Tonight is Rachel's first season basketball game. I think the girls and I are going to go if they are feeling up to it and in a good mood. Well until next time...

~TwInS~

It is almost time!

I was just calculating up my days left here and there are only 15 school days left! WOW! That is freaking fabulous. That sure makes me feel a lot better about getting up for the next couple of weeks and coming to work for NO PAY! It is hard to believe that I have finally made it to graduation. It seems like just yesterday I was packing up and heading off to Murray State...its amazing how fast time goes by and how fast things change. I never imagined my life would have turned out this way but I wouldnt change it for anything. I am happy where I am at this point in my life. Everything is falling into place and I couldnt be more blessed. I cant wait to put on that cap and gown and walk across that stage. It has been one rough, long road...and I cant wait to see what is in store for me and my family in the future. Until next time...

Another Day...Not Another Dollar LOL

My second night in my new house went a lot better than the first. One of the girls actually slept in their baby bed until about 5 am this morning which was fantastic. They both have a cold so that probably doesnt help their sleeping because Im sure they cant breath that good. Im going to put their humidifier in their room tonight and see if that helps any. It sure felt good to sleep in my bed...thats for sure. So today I close on my house which I am super excited about, then I have to run by my apartment and run the mop over the floor real quick then I will be officially done with that place. Hopefully I can get the keys back to my landlord this weekend and get some money back in my pocket. That would be very nice. They are hooking up my satelite today! Thank goodness because tonight is Grey's Anatomy night! I just wish they would set up an appoinment to hook up my DSL, that would be fabulous. Well today is my last day at school for this week...thank goodness. Tomorrow I am suppose to be going to WKU if I decide to attend lol. Well until next time...

One more thought

It is so crazy how some people, who you never thought would ever come back in your life, appear out of nowhere. It is also amazing how different these people can become over just a matter of like 5 years...and when I say they are different I mean that in a positive way. Not to say they were not good people 5 years ago, but they have changed in ways that are hard to explain but I definitely think their changing is a good thing. The appearance of these people have really made me questions myself in some areas of my life. I love having a boyfriend but then again I love being single. Its nice to not have anyone to answer too. Im not going to stress over it though. Im in no hurry for anything to happen. Im young. I have other things that are first priority in my life right now. Well Until next time...